Thanks for your notes. It certainly is hard to deal with double truths. I just mostly keep my mouth shut as much as I can when I’m in public.
I see there is another post on double bookkeeping Double Bookeeping - Very interesting - Thoughts? I didn’t know that was a thing, but it certainly sounds like what I experience.
For me, it is a lot of work to try to gain insight. I have been working on trying to get unconfused for over a year. My SO is so tired of talking with me about my delusions but is gradually starting to become more patient again.