I guess some of the 35+ set had a tougher & more negative childhood with regular corporal punishment, insults and worse. So, lots of us were VERY motivated to work, support ourselves and enjoy being an adult fully. I think it was easier then due to lower mental illness rates or at least more self respect from people not to make themselves look like a nut torturing a stranger with verbal harassment/thought broadcasting crazy stuff. Lots of people don’t mind looking like a crazy kook now. I KNOW this makes me more motivated because I did achieve a decent, yet modest lifestyle and could afford to support myself with a little extra $$$$ for security. Childhood wasn’t that great, adulthood was nice. It was easy to achieve this in 2000, not so much now.
So, think it really makes me very anxious to rely on social security check, do limited work and now live with parents (as any females in my community are being screwed with bad for living alone. Just cannot afford it any more as things don’t pay as much either.) Gets very frustrating as I keep trying professionally and meet upon more discrimination, stigma, workplace harassment, education harassment, devil worshipper acting church peoples…that could trip me up and complicate self support/independent living.) This is all perfectly legal to do to someone and attorneys here don’t intervene on behalf of mental illness victims often.
I really don’t see humans as animals with higher intelligence any longer, only using animal drives for sex and even having trouble with basic animal functions like caring for offspring as narcissism/sadism interferes…Higher intelligence of lots of adults is now just submission to orders from voices (zombie drone style in some places) and sadism/passive aggression toward lower people. Some claim a ‘higher’ calling to do something for people/animals but some of these folks are really a tyrant trying to exercise absolute control over people (example of denying charity clients) or just scamming to support themselves with non-profit/charity $$$…Sadly, this latter is pretty common in some places as stigma gets worse towards some unwanted & workers see no problem to use their job to hurt someone.
You can get a little more enjoyment out of life if you try to find something you enjoy in life and pursue it…That is very hard for a while with low avolition, but you can manage it later. Trick to functioning when you have learned to ignore your symptoms is avoiding the toxic social problem areas and blinders to all this crap, without thinking of it as a negative of you wallow in it. Moving may be helpful if you have a TON of people in your community who mistreat you or cops targeted you for discrimination. Then ADL/self care, self support and explore independent living possibilities, develop social network or supportive family for need for belonging…Hope it helps.