Don't have it in me anymore

Quitting any drug of addiction is a huge achievement. That’s step one (and a big step at that so congratulations).

As for the weight loss…have you thought about joining Weight Watchers? I joined them during a period when I was pretty low…weight loss wasn’t my top priority at the time but I thought it’d give me something to do. So, I joined their weekly group classes…I actually enjoyed them…for a start, I could escape from my usual problems, socialise a bit…bond over our shared love/hate relationship with food…and all that jazz.

Or, search for some other groups you can join, depending on your interests…if you don’t like them, you just don’t go back :smile:

I’m 31 and I remember having a pre-mid-life-crisis thing when I turned 30…but honestly, you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. My partner went back to study at 33 and many others are still at cross-roads…some have it figured out but plenty of us are still wondering wtf happened to our 20’s…and why aren’t we grown up yet…

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I know you face problem with suspiciousness and not trusting people,I do too sometimes,I think it’s best to do what people are mostly doing at your age…but make sure it is decent and positive.Avoid taking Drug or Drinking too much alcohol.Going to party,meeting friends,being at a workplace is a good way to live in life

I spend most of my time working as a salesman and i feel I am improving although I don’t have a decent goal or aim for my career/work…I believe I will have something to work towards to and look forward to.

I suggest you either go find a job,go back to school or place socializing as your piority in life,these would probably give you a big help if you do it as these are what most people at age 20-35 are doing right?

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Thank you @Louisa84, I think we were born the same year if the number at the end of your name is any indication of your birth year. My mom used to be on a Weight Watchers program, I’m pretty knowledgeable on fitness but I really let myself go, I don’t know how the pounds piled up like that but I weigh 320 lbs now. I have no desire to burn it off. The problem is I suffered in the past to have six pack abs and followed a strict vegan diet, and went lifting weights every day. Now it’s all been lost and I know the kind of time you have to invest if you want to be fit. Here’s a more or less flattering picture of me right now:

I just hate my love handles, the front isn’t so bad but the sides and behind make me really feel repulsive. I think I will put my weight loss aspirations on hold for now, it’s not a top priority, but thanks for the encouraging words. My 20’s were spent in sorrow and isolation, the 2000’s haven’t been my best years but I will keep moving forward. :heartpulse:

@Gtx1990, Yeah I should find an activity, it’s just that I have hurdles waking up in the morning, I am depressed so I just want to head back to bed. But if I should find the right thing for me, I’ll invest some time in it and hope for dividends. Talking on here makes me feel better already! :smiley:

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Man I guessed you might have some spare time maybe go back to 30min exercise a day to start with?

Existing on a vegan diet and doing weights…possible but it’s easier with meat :smiley:

hey ekoms. you do’t look that fat, honestly. overweight yep, but no way near as overweight as i thought from your description. i have put on 10 pounds this past month as i was over using seroquel to help me sleep, so lots of munchie trips to the local store!! i now weigh 11 stone which to me is grossly overweight but i used to weigh 13 stone so it’s not all bad. i have started my diet today and had berries meusli with fresh blueberries and raspberries and strawberry yoghurt mixed in. it’s not how much you eat but what you eat that counts. last night i turned down a dominos because it’s over 2,000 calories and i should be aiming for 1,500 calories a day to lose weight. that doesn’t mean i have to starve myself or feel hungry at all. i just have to make the right choices in WHAT i eat. diet food doesn’t have to be boring. tonight i’m having steak with chips/fries done in the oven, and a roux sauce which is made from skimmed milk and a knob of butter and a little flour. once the white sauce is made i’ll add crushed pepper corns to it and a beef stock cube et voila, diet pepper sauce! it’s usually made with double cream so think of the calorie savings!! i’ll be having a roasted onion instead of fried onion rings and roasted tomato and mushrooms. frylite do an oil spray that’s 1 calorie per spray. it can be done, you just have to think before you scoff is all. if you like cheese buy half fat cheese, if you like meat buy lean meat. check back in with me two weeks from today and we’ll see if i’ve lost anything.
as for the video games there are coding courses online that would go towards qualifications in that area. start out with a free one like “codecademy” and see if you like it.

you can get out of this despair but it takes hard work from you. only you can make you happy and that involves leaving the house if only for a five minute walk to the shop and back. exercise raises serotonin levels so get out and about. it doesn’t have to be to trek across the himalayas just walk round the block for a start. you can do this hunni. i know it’s hard but things can and do get better. wishing the best for you x

Oh @jaynebeal, as I read your post I felt a rush of water in my eyes. I’m pretty delusional this morning, feeling like Jesus, I hate it, happens every time I make a new art piece and post it online, makes me ultra-paranoid!! But thanks, I breezed through your post, it was so fun and easy to read!!

If it’s any consolation, I’m 44 and I don’t know where I’m headed!. It is a frightening thought at my age; it’s like I’m running out of road.

My problem is with the general preoccupation of society with the baser elements of life. Gentleness is seen as something that is perhaps a weakness, whilst toughness and hardness is seen as a strength.

An excellent point. I have seen things I have cherished slowly disappear, and it is despair over such things that gradually eats away at your motivation. I thought I was over the despair: I thought I was turning into a happier person. I was deluded. I am worse than ever.

I don’t have many friends, but I am lucky in that I have a good family and it helps me stay sane. However, I am still very angry and bitter at how the various physical illnesses I have accumulated over the years have conspired to turn my life into an irreversible train-wreck, but I realise I have no option but to accept it.

Best wishes,
Padster

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I totally agree on that. :angry:

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I wouldn’t get too down on yourself for not wanting to do things. What you describe are the negative symptoms of sz. The only drug that helped me with that was Abilify. It got me a little too amp’ed up though, and I had to quit taking it. That’s the story of this drug for a lot of people. You might give it a try, though. You could try an anti-depressant, also.

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I think you might just be depressed? that is the King of demotivators. I would focus on what gives you hope? It could be flowers in the window, or anything like that? I wish you happiness and will pray for you.

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I hear you and can only imagine your pain. I believe our society places too much emphasis on jobs, education, money and not enough on being a compassionate human being who brings a smile to others.

My son is your age and on an injectable he does not believe he needs. But everytime I see him, I smile and I know he is here for a reason. Please do not give up. I know it’s hard. You are not alone.

linda

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If one is truly schizophrenic, paranoid or bipolar, anti-depressants would be a =very= bad idea, as they will (in most people, not just those with the three diagnoses listed above) increase tendencies toward mania and/or suspicious ideation. (Believe me, =I= know about this first-hand.) Most P docs prescribe meds, period. Most never mention the cognitive-behavioral and mindfulness-based cognitive therapies that work well for many with psychotic spectrum and especially paranoid problems. I would Google those two terms and look through what you find. There are =many= inexpensive workbooks one can find on amazon.com to get familiar with them and even try them out before heading off to a psychotherapist.

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