I honestly have accepted that life is going to be a struggle. I can sympathize with you about doing nothing. I dont do much of anything. Days blend together. I had to look at the calender today to figure out what day it was. But i remain hopeful that one day they will come out with a better medicine. I have depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia. Its a lethal combo
I had to take a step back and with my peer support realize that I may only work part time. And that’s in the future. Some days are really rough but there are brighter days. I wish services were better where you’re at. Cause my services get me to go do things. I’m big on routine. Like today there is nothing to go do. So I’m kinda just stuck. But I have something scheduled tomorrow to look forward to. You just gotta find that one thing that is worth fighting for. Be it family, your dog, the sunset, whatever it may be.
IDK, I basically say the same thing over and over. My life is not great and I’ve thought my life is over a million times over the years. But guess who took his car in to be fixed and had breakfast out and had a nice drive this morning? Life doesn’t end and things can get better.
Your life is never a waste. You just don’t feel like you’ve accomplished anything big, when you’ve had so many small victories in your life recently. Count those. And life is always an ebb and flow. Just because you are in an ebb, doesn’t make your life as a whole meaningless. Try to think positive, and lift yourself up. You have worth.