I have worked until recently all through this illness
Ups and downs, but this time I feel like I have fallen too far down to recover again
Covid-19 has shot up mental health services, and they can’t help me
I do not see a future other than relying on the state to support me - which I am grateful for
But… My criticism is what do I do? I have wasted the last year doing nothing, and it seems like a ticket to more of the same and that’s not what I want either
Sometimes i do feel as if life is an endless struggle against boredom and irritation. But then i sleep and dream of doing sports and stuff i like and it gets me energized for the next day
I honestly have accepted that life is going to be a struggle. I can sympathize with you about doing nothing. I dont do much of anything. Days blend together. I had to look at the calender today to figure out what day it was. But i remain hopeful that one day they will come out with a better medicine. I have depression, anxiety, and schizophrenia. Its a lethal combo
I had to take a step back and with my peer support realize that I may only work part time. And that’s in the future. Some days are really rough but there are brighter days. I wish services were better where you’re at. Cause my services get me to go do things. I’m big on routine. Like today there is nothing to go do. So I’m kinda just stuck. But I have something scheduled tomorrow to look forward to. You just gotta find that one thing that is worth fighting for. Be it family, your dog, the sunset, whatever it may be.
IDK, I basically say the same thing over and over. My life is not great and I’ve thought my life is over a million times over the years. But guess who took his car in to be fixed and had breakfast out and had a nice drive this morning? Life doesn’t end and things can get better.
Your life is never a waste. You just don’t feel like you’ve accomplished anything big, when you’ve had so many small victories in your life recently. Count those. And life is always an ebb and flow. Just because you are in an ebb, doesn’t make your life as a whole meaningless. Try to think positive, and lift yourself up. You have worth.
Ok, you are not believing. That is the same situation when i posted about looking lpg gas flame for 2 minutes daily benifits me in schizophrenia. Some members of forum and moderator became against me. Then some another member of this forum posted that it helped himself also. Then moderator understand me. Anyway thanks.