i’m afraid if i become too political, a scandal might break out, and i’ll become nationally known, and then i’ll be murdered, either assassinated, shanked in prison, or murdered in a back ally or something.
my gut tells me this is true. but, my better senses tell me this is probably just me being paranoid. so does that mean it’s not a delusion? there’s also that idea of ‘double bookkeeping’ where you think something is true and not true at the same time. i mean, i’m convinced i shouldn’t tempt fate and get myself killed. i know i’ve had lots of delusions in the past, and looking back i was definitely delusional, but this current fix i’m on i’m not so sure about.