It is a secret so you do not have to share.
By secret longings I mean like a time when psychotic, emotions from the past you can not forget.
Even though I think I have moved on now with PTSD I still have memories of the emotions.
Certain feeling at a certain time which is in my memory.
Also most of my memories are through psychosis such as anger (I have not felt angry for a very long time now)
Secret longings from when we were psychotic?
well now that you put it that way 
For me most of my memories are from psychosis which are horrifying but there are some good ones too.
Yes, I miss some of the things from my psychosis. It was a fantastic world…
I am sorry but I have some good memories unfortunately
I have good memories too from psychotic times
I long for some of my memories from before meds or right after, but it’s highly selective, more of an emotion really
Yeah i am doing my best to finally move on from most.
I have this weird thing where I almost never think about my past at all. The less than immediate part of it, anyway. I also rarely talk about it unless someone asks. It has caused a few problems, but I’m fine with it and I’m fine with not being preoccupied with memories. So, to answer your question: Nope. 
I really really wanna get better from alogia. To my family members and anyone I meet there is no issue but beneath the surface I am really struggling with this.
It is not a bad thing really, to just move on and forget. Good job. I hope nothing dangerous
I am glad to be here where I am right now though.
My only secret longing is to get to heaven and have beautific vision of the heavenly father.