I have lived independently as far as living alone goes .
I have managed my cleaning, washing,grooming ,shopping etc except for when I was in hospital.
Right now I feel I need s care worker on a daily basis.
I care for my man who could have ptsd and our animals and home.
But I do not feel I am getting the care I need because I feel like I am not coping emotionally.
I moved interstate with my horse.
I feel I want stability and support.
My boyfriend said he would break up with me if I stress him.
A relationship where we take care of each other but maybe he can not love or care for me .
He has been great to me but my best does not feel like it is enough for him.
I am doing my best to be a good girlfriend.
I can not do more than my best and if that is still not good enough…
I had paranoia about friend and family.
I feel so alone.
Like I do not have a people but if I do they might be aliens cause golly knows I do not seem to fit with any people in world I know of.
I have been crying for days and feel so emotional and that I am not coping.
When he said he would break up with me I can not handle that.
I think if ones partner cares for you…
I want to marry him but we are having difficulties.
It was so good and I was so happy till that picture and he yelled at me.
I pray please help me.
Please help me.
I want security stability love kindness care thoughtfulness humour and laughter affection I want that he would never break up.
I regret How bad I was with Anders.
Others were starting me malicious ly it was not me.
I hope he knows me well enough.
Can my man handle me as I know I need to be cared for…
Am I stressing him out when I am doing my best…
I just feel I need help.
I try to support and care for my man but maybe it is not good enough.
I feel like I need a care worker to help me every day or husband that care for me and organise things and so forth.
The irony is I am educated aged care worker.
I could not do it.
I tried my best and it was not good enough.
I suffered and went sick .
I tried with only one client and still mute and hysteria etc
I need help .
My man has cared for me but I feel like I am higher care maintenance at the moment.
I do not want to go to assisted living place.
Just help me settle in and keep doing my best.
If he breaks up with me I do not think I could cope.
I have been crying just about all day and praying for help.
Paranoia and voices and delusions made me isolate from family and after years of no contact I finally have contact again but only saying hello on internet.
I just repeat please help me.
I have breathing not normal etc.
I am supposed to be a care worker but right now I feel that I need care.
I feel I want to hear will not leave me.
I managed to clean today and do laundry so proud of that but so emotional.
Do you have a care worker you meet with?
Even a spirit that is nice …