I do its like all my paranoia and voices start up when I’m interacting with someone even more when I’m really trying to be engaging.
My son seems to be this way–more so with family members. It`s stressful trying to be social sometimes, and that just amps things up it seems.
Sometimes yeah. Like I will hallucinate people saying things while they’re talking. Just sometimes, not constantly, but on bad days, yes constantly.
It kinda depends. If I’m alone and in a quiet environment, they will become louder. If I’m at a large gathering or anywhere that’s noisy, they intensify also. That’s one of the main reasons I am around music almost non-stop, from arising in the morning, to bed time. My routine is to wake up, grab a drink, and plop down on the computer and get the music fired up and hop on the net. After I wake up fully, usually 20 minutes later, I do my hygiene, then am in front of the monitor for the day until my wife gets home. We’ll eat, then it’s off to do something, and back on the computer around 7 or 8 until bedtime at 9:30 or 10pm. Only then does the noise stop. It’s not such an issue anymore since the voices have been brought under control, though. A lot of the time, the music serves to keep me focused instead of drowning out voices like it used to. When the voices were raging, I had in earbuds with the volume at 100%.
That happens with me too. The worst is when its a small group 1-5 people. Im ok alone or in large crowds but when its the smaller groups i get weirded out especially by what others are saying like they’re trying to send me negative messages and they know everything going on with me that dumb bully. Not all of it has been real and just my mind but Ive known people that have known my issues and have played songs to screw with me like metal songs with lyrics “you’re worthless” and Ive asked about it and all they’ve done is nod or say things that know are triggering. How am i supposed to work through my symptoms if people are actually trying to exploit them? People can really be dissapointing sometimes
I hate it when that happens… it doesn’t even have to be a large crowd… sometimes it happens where there is only one other person in the room.
I used to tape my professors lectures… and sometimes I swore he was talking about me to the class… then I go back and listen to the tapes… nothing.
Frustrating doesn’t begin to cover it.
I used to have that, I don’t even know if what I hear is true most of the time. I don’t remember entire conversations because of it. I tend to be really focused when having a conversation. It hasn’t happened since I’m on meds though, don’t really want it to happen ever again. It’s terrible.
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That’s sort the hard part too… I try to focus but that makes it very difficult to interact with more then one person… or I get really tired after being with someone after a while.
I’m learning to let things go… if something totally out of character was said then it most likely was my head acting up and not the person actually saying it.
Sure makes it hard to keep a conversation going.
Yeah, me too. I’m learning to relax about it though. Today I was thinking about it especially because of this thread and started to do abdominal breathing, to relax 
Was able to joke around a bit with my colleagues. It was cool. There is hope!!!
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