I just am going through that. it felt like everyone and everything was happening to me – too much, too fast and now I need to take a weekend to “fall apart”. I didn’t clean up my stuff today and I am wondering if I’ll do something “wrong” tomorrow too.
it’s just my way of saying " what about me?" it makes me wonder if us with sz are reacting to stresses or social abuses and emotional abuses by “falling apart” because we have to. in my case I never chose to fall apart bigtime the way I did at 22 years. it just happened.
I need several hours of laziness in any day for energizing me to clean up the room for an hour.
And employer will not allow that kind of time frame. I work best in part time job- “laziness” or “state of disorganized” in the whole morning up to noon, and part time work in the afternoon.
I am new to this word “fall apart” but I think that is how I relate mine to yours.