Maybe I’m just lazy and dream of being on disability and do sweet fuuckall…
We are not lazy. This is a misconception
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Yes but will we ever know if maybe we just lazy
Dont we hide behind " negative symptoms " ?
How can we know? Impossible
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That’s the thing we dont know lol.
I think I’m lazy and tell myself I’m making excuses when I say it’s the negative symptoms.
Sigh
I look back over my life and can easily say I’m not a lazy person. I use to love to work and work hard. It gave me great pride to put in a hard days work and my self esteem was very much attached to that work ethic. Now my self esteem takes a huge hit everyday that I can barely seem to stay out of the bed and I have to ask for help to keep my dishes clean. I don’t use the negatives as an excuse. The struggle is real. I’m 100% sure of it.
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I can’t make the effort to be lazy.
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I have wondered about that for myself. When i said i felt so incredibly tired and unmotivated and overwhelmed by all my tasks that besides work and my kid i cant do much…my nurse said i shouldnt hide behind the symptoms of meds and illness.
Although i do often think i am lazy and should just be capable of living a normal life, i felt a little angry at her as well… she doesnt know how it feels and i think it is very easy for a healthy person to say that i should just be able to combine 4 days work plus kid plus household plus social life while fighting with sedating meds, perhaps negatives and anxiety every day. When i come home i often crash and am incapable of doing much besides lying on bed.
That said - deep down i still believe im lazy instead of ill. Just me though, others im more compassionate about.
It’s real. I push myself really hard to get anything done. I’m getting stuff done but it’s much harder than it used to be when I was younger. I feel old before my time. I used to assume I was going to have kids at some point but now that I have schizophrenia I changed my mind in part because after the day is over I sometimes barely have enough energy to take care of my cat with the basics of changing the litter box or getting water and food. My brother thinks that I can do it cuz I’m doing other stuff but I don’t think I can do everything I’m doing now plus kids. It’s a real disability and doing anything is exhausting and hard
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I am far from being lazy.
It’s just that I am constantly fatigued and lack motivation.
I also suffer with Anhedonia.
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I am with the others who say it is a struggle. I used to be able to get a lot of things done in a day, now it takes effort just to keep a routine.
I have moments where I feel like it could be laziness but I quickly realize that being lazy would feel good in a self indulgent way and that is not how I feel, I feel more laboured than lazy.
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With me, not saying it’s the same for others, a lot of it comes down to cognition NB executive functioning. I get anxious and overwhelmed when it comes to multi step tasks. It’s like I don’t know where to proceed so I just avoid it.
Give me a simple task like buttering bread or filling buckets with water and I’ll be as hard working as the next person .
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I think all of us have a “specialty” or special talent that we find easier to focus on than others because we invested a lot of time in it already. Firemonkey has a knack for finding really good and useful info on the internet, someone else might be a great and experienced bowler etc… If a task doesn’t give much pleasure of accomplishment it’s going to be way harder to do and with sz I think we feel guilty for taking credit for small tasks especially when our friends and family don’t see what’s the big deal and give us no credit for what they don’t understand is a big step for us. (But then again I get surprised how they can’t understand a “simple” computer problem)
The only way we truly influence the world is through muscular actions… We butter bread with hands and arms, type with digits, write a letter to a loved one or give a fellow motorist the finger. If we are have two conflicting goals then we are trying to run two subroutines at odds with each other and will feel tense.
Right now I have the will to mop and yet the will to rest because I didn’t sleep very well. Some call it a rationalization but it just means that I can’t decide which one I really intend to do or I might have a laundry list of other things which might or might not be important (like typing a message here)
absolutely not.
This.
I used to be so motivated to do a hard day of work too. Now its the same, try to stay out of bed. try to get something done, but my old self still has the expectation to get done what I used to in productivity. somedays just showering and having a coffee is difficult.
oh how i wish I could go back to the old motivated self. I can force it when needed but man is it exhausting
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I think I’m a lazy person naturally and this is exacerbated by negatives.
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It’s the same as the paranoia, i.e. a severe symptom. The explanation is the same ‘why WOULD anyone be out to get me??!!’ and for laziness ‘why WOULD I be lazy??!!’.
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