Have delusions that I have been injected and maybe I am …(will get a blood test to confirm soon).
But people around here say that they hear voices and see stuff…I mean is that really possible…I mean Ive had it as bad as anyone around here…■■■■■■ up family and soon to be breakup of my marriage…But still I cannot hear nor see anything.
Do really people see and hear stuff?.
Look I am not trying to be un-sympathetic or inhuman…My care to those people who do really have such problems but I see a lot of lies and treachery in this world…I just want to ask honestly do such problems exist?.
Yes I do. I don’t see things, but I hear ■■■■ and see thoughts coming from other people and out the environment. I know it’s just me, but sensory information can become contorted in many ways. I have no idea what it would be like to be sz without the hallucinations. I would call it normal lol, but I’m sure that you still can have problems like paranoia or anxiety in the extreme these can be crippling. I have kind of mastered a lot of what can happen in the mind. Recognition and control, but I still hallucinate. It does seem to be subsiding, if I can just get rid of these hallucination I’ll be a happy camper. Recovery is a very slow process, but it is interesting and kind of fulfilling to rise above this ■■■■.
Do I have auditory or visual hallucinations? Yes. I see people say things that they most likely didn’t and hear them say it. I also have three voices in my head, it’s like having an iPod on medium volume but it’s coming from my brain. Scans have shown that we have brain activity in the area where hearing takes place while we hallucinate- I was a neuroscience major my first year.
Yes. People hear stuff and see things. And feel things.
If you don’t have that you should be happy. It’s horrible to not trust your senses when you have insight to your hallucinations.
Some have delusions…no, I believe everyone in here have delusions coming and going. You have your delusion about being injected. But what is the worst case scenario for you? Is it really so bad to take meds and feel peace in mind? Your delusions will go away.
Have you ever thought you’ve heard your name called and you look around and find that no one has? Or maybe thought you heard a familiar voice in passing only to find that your in a group of strangers?
Now… magnify that to a constant auditory glitch… also… internal thoughts end up loud like a voice. For me anyway.
Visual hallucinations… Again… for most people… a flash out of the corner of the eye… a simple trick of the light… that makes you look…
For me… my visual hallucinations are more solid and don’t disappear when I look again. Or it’s spatial relations starting to warp or expand. Things that traumatized me when I was young… come back to do it again. (there is lots of fire in my hallucinations. There was a house fire when I was 14.)
The more solid (either auditory or visual) the hallucination… depends on the state I’m in. It’s not constant for me… it’s when I’m in a panic psychosis… or anxiety ramping up.
Relaxed state… I see things pretty calmly and clearly… panic and anxiety… the head circus starts to act up and my cross wired mind gets even more cross wired.
Could it be that these “Seeing” and “hearing” stuff is ACTUALLY REAL. And pyschiatry is classifying them as mental illness for the obvious reasons to make some money.
I mean I know for a fact that Certain people are just born very sensitive and are able to perceive stuff that other “normal” people cannot. I mean rather than a disease shouldn’t these be considered as Gifts and rather than giving medications and shutting down their brains this gift these could actually help productively to humanity at large.
I dont really know why is this forum so pushing towards medications?. I mean seriously how can you even logically and in common sense think that any drug will cure your so called disease?. ANY drug will just shut down your brains, your emotions, your memory and your thinking ability…NOTHING MORE.
“Dopamine and Serotonin blocking can stop delusions, hallucinations and even so called Depression” is actually questioned severely by many Scientists and that the long term effects of the psychotropic drugs are more harmful than beneficial. I mean the 2nd point has been proven by Empirical evidence.
I will provide the appropriate links.
However, if someone is truly getting benefitted (or under the assumption that they are being benefitted)…I welcome them to continue their medications.
It is good for your well being. Otherwise it can worsen the situation. Medicines are necessary saurav. No one can force anyone but a rule of thumb is no one wants to see anyone suffering. That’s why you find people encouraging others to be on medication.
You would have read people posting about their state during Schizophrenia. There is a lot of difference they feel when they feel better.
Yes, there are some drawbacks as well like problems in intimacy and some weight gain. But I believe these are somewhat secondary things. If your mind is not healthy then you wouldn’t be able to take care of yourself. Eventually these secondary problems would jump in some other forms!
Please do see a doctor if you feel anxiety or any delusion.
On the right dosage the meds do not shut me down entirely, they help me function. I recall that during my last psychosis it took me almost an hour just to make a sandwich - now im on track to finish my masters in mathematics and philosophy. To me, getting my degrees counts as the better life but sure, this is open to interpretation. The delusions made me feel special, but I came to realise I do not want to be special in the way the delusions suggested. To answer your initial question: I heard and engaged in full blown conversations with my hallucinations 24/7. I did not have visual hallucinations, but did have something that comes close to that: visually overinterpreting things that are there, rather than seeing things that aren’t there entirely.
For instance clouds: when I would look at the clouds, every single cloud seemed like a figure, dragons, bunnies, faces, lot’s of different things. Luckily I could realize this was an extreme form of what occurs sometimes in normal circumstances as well: to see a cloud as a bunny - while obviously knowing it’s not a bunny in the skies. Another example would be misreading words: I would read obscenities and things somehow related in signs and subtitles on the tv. Most of the time I was aware of having misread these words, and would be able to read them properly upon a second glance. I am not sure whether such misinterpretations count as hallucinations, but they sure are capable of feeding into your delusions.
I have read your post about growing bumps on your chest and this made me think instantly about these phenomena I experienced myself. When you focus intensely on some object, maybe motivated by a delusional belief, it can appear strange to you. Compare this with thinking of how a particular word is spelled. You can write it down one way, and then you look at the word intensely, and it may seem that this is not the right way. But any other way seems wrong as well when you stare at the word long enough. Of course, the way you initially spelled it was the right way, but now after focusing on it for too long, you cannot tell anymore and you have to look it up to check. Such a thing is comparable with some schizophrenic phenomena (known as hyperreflexivity in the literature), where excessive awareness of some objects does quite the opposite of what we might expect: instead of getting a clear conception of them, they come to appear more and more strange to us. Because of this, we think something is going on with these objects, we think there must be something special about them, or that something has changed in them. I hope the analogy with how words are spelled makes it plausible for you to see how we ourselves can make perfectly normal things appear strange, merely by paying more attention to them.
How Medications help on the “illness” that you talk about?. They clearly dont as demonstrated by ethical scientists and those people who really care about humanity. Of course Pharma companies and people on their payrollls (Psychiatrists) etc would really tell something else cause they too need to feed their families.
The world is small and population is large. Being ethical is tantamount to being suicidal and as Socrates would have said “Being practical is the way to be” in the world else you are dead.
But being practical can help you lead a lifestyle that you asked for (getting those degrees etc) and may even keep you up on the Job and help you survive…But the fundamental question is that will that help you be Happy and satisfied ?..THAT IS A QUESTION ONLY YOU CAN ANSWER FOR YOURSELF.
Let me give you a story that one of the reporter’s covered which I had read online:
She had met a group of 30 folks all of whom had schizophrenia…When she originally met these people 2 decades back she saw that they were in a terrible shape…They had lost their jobs , 1 or 2 of them their families and many of them were on the streets. She had taken a note of their situation and kept a database of their condition.
She visited these folks recently to find out about them. She saw vastly different results from the 2 different ways those folks had decided to deal with their so called illness.
15 of those follks took medications for about an year or at a maximum of 2 years and realized that their condition those seemingly looking to be an improvement had robbed them of humanity and even capability to have basic human emotions. So all of those folks got out of medicatons and decided to deal with their problems HEAD ON. (without medications). Few took the path of spirituality (like Buddhism), a few of them joined charity, a few of them took to careers they always wanted to do but could not due to different pressure groups etc…Meaning they tried to find out the root of their problems and decided to deal with it…
After 2 decades all 15 of them had FULLY RECOVERED from their illness (delusion/hallucinations). They were smiling, happy, joyous and their entire personalities reflected their joy and energy. All of them had now stable and happy families with kids.
The second group of people had CONTINUED their medications over the past 2 decades. The reporter says that their faces reflected a sad irony …They infact looked much worse off than when they initially started their medications. About 12 of them were divorced because their spouses couldn’t handle their personalities of lack of emotions and human empathy. About 9 of them were continuing to be in pyschiatric wards.
Their intellectual capacity was clearly destroyed by the medications …Not to mention their ability to express their emotions.
Physically all of them looked bloated , a few had developed diabetes, hypertension, and other weight related issues. A few of them were impotent too. All of them looked like people who in words did LIVE but were in a situation where in death would have been a better alternative.
So now my friend YOU make your conclusions as to what is right.
Whoa there big fella! You can’t tell some people to stop taking meds.
For instance, the second time they entered my mind and began tormenting me i left my home, no where to go and no rest so i left. I happened upon a pyramid out in the wilderness, they led me to the top and i began having their thoughts to kill myself at the top!
And yes, some of the things i’ve seen are real or one could say they have a real conscious cause that is, anyone of us can be made to see just about anything actually.
Sometimes there are gifts and sometimes there is not, schizophrenia is no gift, one might even say i was possessed. It hurt alot.