My brother thinks that my fears are completely psychological in nature.
He doesn’t understand that it’s mainly a biological issue.
He thinks that I’m basically a big coward, and part of me agrees with this assessment.
What the ■■■■■ is wrong with me.
I am afraid of so many things.
From driving, to staying home alone to going out by myself.
I can no longer live like this!
I give up.
You need to give yourself a break.
You just lost your mother and its probably hard to focus on the positives.
You’re not a coward,
You work differently than your brother and he clearly doesn’t understand that.
Don’t give up wave. You have to keep fighting. Unfortunately family members who don’t understand is one of the hurdles that we all come across.
It’s almost like they’re too lazy to use google.
Thank you @GoldenRex and @everhopeful.
I’ve been living with these fears for so long.
I don’t understand this anymore.
Is this a schizophrenia thing?
To be fearful of almost everything?!?
Maybe it’s the Risperdal making me be this way?
Im tired of living like this!
Can you change meds? I’m on latuda. It’s not that bad.
You dont take benzos like some people on here? Maybe an anti anxiety med would help.
I need to look into changing meds carefully @anon12381882.
I’m going to bring up Latuda and other meds.
But she is very reluctant for me to change meds.
Last time I switched meds I ended up in the psych ward for 5 weeks.
But I need to do something.
I think that the risperidone increase is making me feel worse.
Ughh I hate how drugged up benzos make me feel.
Would you consider supplements ?
My brother has been more understanding since he’s experienced hallucinations and paranoia himself . My father never asks how I’m doing mentally. My sister has always had quite negative opinions about my having a mental illness, which she doesn’t always succeed in hiding .
As for being fearful- I’m another one that’s prone to that. I’m more than a little avoidant.
I’m fearful of those too.
I’m going to ask her if I can change antipsychotics.
Honestly I think it’s the risperidone.
I doubt my psychiatrist will allow me to switch APs.
Maybe I can eventually go down on my risperidone dose.
I’m hoping to go down to 3mg eventually.
Every single time that I’ve made a switch it never works out for me.
Wave, hon, I’ve felt afraid of everything. Just keep reminding yourself that the fear is temporary. Therapy helped me a lot with this.
We have a lot in common. It gets better. You just have to work on it.
Take care, hon. 
Why thanks @JustTrish 
You’re not alone Wave. These days I’m afraid of almost anything. I usually have horrible paranoia from 3 to 8. When I first wake up after sleeping 12 hours I’m fine. Then when I take my trazadone at 7 it starts helping with paranoia at about 8. That window is where I’m usually scared of everything. If it’s not one thing it’s the other. I generally think somebody is going to kill me. I’m hoping switching meds helps.
Lately I am afraid of everything.
When I drive I am afraid that the engine will break down, or something will happen to tires, when I walk I am afraid of stray dogs and I am paranoid about bad people that would kidnap me, looking back constantly, when I am home i am aftaid and when I am outside I have agoraphobia etc.
You can overcome slowly. It’s true. It happened to me.
maybe it’s a perception problem, You seem normal, don’t need a straight jacket or anything, it’s really no big deal, and I’m not going to feel sorry for you.
Well, I don’t want you to feel sorry for me, just know the ins and outs of this illness.
If you can’t hear the voices or experience the symptoms how can you possibly understand someone who does?
Yeah I have had agoraphobia since I was a kid.
It’s a terrible way to live.
Thanks @GEDchill @Om_Sadasiva @Greenmind @Daze and @Blizzard.