I vape.
I made a promise to my friend that if I buy cigarettes instead of vaping, he gets to take my vape away.
I’m about to run out of vape juice, and I won’t be able to buy any until monday afternoon. I also won’t be seeing my friend until monday morning.
I can’t afford vape juice until then, but I will be able to afford a pack of cigarettes. If I did that, I could save what little vape juice I do have left for monday, and give him the illusion that I managed it well.
I really, really, really don’t want to go without nicotine for almost two days. I know it sounds childish, but I can’t stand not having it.
I get extremely anxious and restless and irritable.
But I also really really really don’t want to be dishonest with my friend.
And I’ve already used up my quota of “because you told me instead of hiding it, I’ll let it slide” so that’s not an option. Trust me, I’ve considered it.
What do I do? Do I value my own well-being, or do I value my friendship?
Dishonestly buy cigarettes and hide them from my friend, or be honest and suffer through nicotine withdrawal?
Nicotine replacement products are between 60 and 250dkk, a pack of cigarettes costs 35.
I can scrape 35 together if I return some bottles and don’t buy any extra food, but I won’t be able to afford lozenges or patches.
Your done planning, which means you will need to decide and we shouldn’t make Your decision. You feel bad for buying but is it worse to buy or not to buy? Can you not smoke them all? Will it hurt or harm you? Will it hurt or harm your friendship? What is best for you?
I don’t know.
If he finds out, he will be disappointed in me, and he’ll take my vape away, which means no more nicotine for me.
If he doesn’t find out, I’ll feel guilty, but most of the guilt will be from not feeling as guilty as I should for deceiving him.
I don’t have enough juice to last for today, even. Monday afternoon feels a long time away now.
I guess it would be better for my mental health if I got some cigarettes, because then I wouldn’t be anxious and irritable and hungry all the time.
Why don’t you just tell him and offer to throw out the cigarettes when you get more vape juice? That way you’re being honest. And maybe if you explain yourself he’ll understand?
Because we made an agreement. I’d told him I wanted to quit cigarettes because cigarettes were too expensive, and I’d rather vape, so he bought me a good vape, and we made a deal that he gets to take it away if I buy cigarettes.
It does feel like a crap deal, but it’s for my own good.
Ah ok that makes more sense. Well if you want to quit smoking then I’d lean more towards not doing it but I know addiction is a bitch. I’m sorry berru. Is it possible to get vape juice like do they have a less expensive brand you could use in the mean time?
I’m not gonna lie berru I think you might want to try to tough it out. Money seems to be a big issue for you right now. And if you can save the little bit you have til Monday it might help you a bit.
I know it’s not that simple but that’s my opinion.
