I have only read a portion of this thread so I may be missing some info but I hate to see you go off meds on your own. From what I read you are having issues with your doctors help so I guess you don’t have much choice.
At least you are doing it slowly. I hope that if you begin to experience psychotic symptoms you are able to realize it and either stop tapering down or seek out assistance(if any is available to you.)
Good luck Joker.