since some years i was aware of my other symptoms of sz but lately i realize that i have a lot of tiredness. Its like i am not good awaken. I drag my legs on the floor, i feel the tiredness in my head even. Is it a negative symptom of sz? I dont know why i have it :/… Maybe its linked to some bad thinking, lack of thinking…
did you have tiredness too? when its too heavy in my case its painfull, it turnes in a bad heavy energy wow…
I remember that when i was a student i was pulling myself to the school with this heaviness and tiredness, thats why i became so desperate cause i thought that ill always have it…
One of my pdocs told me that probably i dont have energy cause i have obsessive cycling thoughts but now i am a bit better on this but the tiredness its still here. maybe its just a negative symptom…
take care
My pdoc said that I have energy but that I’m unable to use it. Don’t know what that means…
Its good that you have energy 
its not a life to be a zombie if you see… Idk why you cant use it, maybe because of some other symptoms?
The only antipsychotic that made me more motivated and less tired was Risperidone.
But it gave me severe restless legs and I used to make me wide awake at 3am.
Vraylar gives me energy.
Nothing helps the tiredness I get everyday. Not one single thing.
It’s almost like someone has pulled the energy plug out of my life, and I’m just winding down.
both of mine make me exhausted all the time. but wait, I think I was exhausted before anyway. oh I think it’s worse now.
In fact i dont feel a lot on my Zyprexa. Neither sedation, neither more tiredness than before. It should be something in my head lol. My pdoc was saying to me that Zyprexa is a bit antidepressive.
whatever, i went out today twice and the second time i was mad at my mom outside. she said once again that ill never get better wow… i dont know why she doesn’t believe that somebody can get a better quality of life despite the mi…
It’s very difficult when you don’t have any positive reinforcement on the home front.
Hope you can do better just to show your mom it’s not only possible, but desirable.
thank you csummers. Idk why she is like that. The parents of my best friend who is ill always supported her. why me not? My mother just reinforces my feeling of injustice. ok, i am diagnosed as borderline once and as paranoid sz with mostly negative symptoms but wtf? there is always hope, especially once you know that you are ill? ive matured also…i am hard sometimes, i understand this but she only says that its impossible to find a social life at my age in my country even for normies, yeah… she is Russian btw. my father was Bulgarian. and i was sad when i saw myself at one mirror outside. I havemy neck quite curved because since years i look at the floor and my feet yeah and no sport… There was also this friend of mine who told in my bach that men dont like me a lot cause i am not very pretty, yeah…
It could be the Depakote, @Anna1.
Depakote is wearing me down completely.
The thing is that my pdoc wont adjust or change my meds.
She tells me that I would be institutionalized without the Risperidone or Depakote in my system.
Good luck!
You and I would naturally be friends if we lived closer. You sound a lot like me, or me like you. It is a good thing to be, and never listen to those who put you down.
Life works best with the heart, not the eyes, perception changes everything as does age.
Your heart is good, follow this and when you look back on your life, you will be proud.
The flip side of always looking down?
I find a lot of money on the ground this way. I pick it up with pride, and when saved enough, buy a nice little treat to make me smile.
Hope you can find something nice too.
@Wave, do you understand that somebody can be really deep low because of his illness? that’s why i was diagnosed as borderline once even though i am not sure its the reality… i see myself as a monster, i am paranoid about famous people cause i feel like a genetic monster which affected me even physically. even my main pdoc said that its not a paranoia that i have. I guess i just have the normal worries of the normies but to an extend that they drain my happiness… i am low without my meds already… my mom said that those with negatives get better harder so she doesn’t believe it anymore after 10 years of despair for me…My best friend is bipolar or sz but i find her narcistic, really…Me, if i had some narcistic sides its not the case anymore, it never was a big part of my illness. without my meds i am in my bed, i stop eating and i have just one thought in my head - that nobody loves me… i cant even get out of the bed and its pure craziness. But i find it quite strange. never had hallucinations etc. But i take personally a lot of things said in the tv and i feel ugly and that nobody cares about me but its up to a point that it looks like a sz…i am not even sure if i have it now, its quite strange i say…
I was asking if for some of you the lack of energy was a psychotic symptom? Me, here me again with my feeling of dumbness in my head and the feel of some bad heavy energy instead of a brain… ill never recover if i have this every night…
Partly, it’s lack of movement over a long term. Spend a week in bed, and you’ll get tired walking to the bathroom.
Try to move a bit more, you will be tired, but slowly you will begin to be less tired.