I didn’t manage to get a shower ( still haven’t)
So rang dentist this morning and rescheduled
But ive been for depot this pm
So at least thats done
I was a bit self conscious being a ming rat currently but hey ho
To the neurotypical, deep thinking may involve a baseline and a peak they would self report as deep.
When in episode I overthink so much and to the extreme that my relative baseline of deep thinking becomes wonky. I read into everything and exhaust the topic when like that. Find signs I think have deep meaning.
When I’ve come back from episode, it isn’t so much that my previous neurotypical deep thinking was more shallow, it’s just that the psychosis has shown me a much higher and toxic form of deep thought.
World seems to pass me by… sometimes I do see people I noticed before as if it was a kind of matrix, they did the same things as I remember them doing… not sure if it is a memory issue or real anymore…