I started out with weed and cocaine at 16 and have also had a nontreated head injury meaning, “it wasnt severe enough to go to the hospital just for a bump on the ole noggin.” …I bet you its the cocaine.
If your drug use was that minimal, it was probably NOT a factor
Did your mother ignore / neglect / emotionally abandon you?
Meaning?
Most drug-triggered sz involves regular and substantial (ab)use.
What other realities (that you can see) do they deny?
And finally, the causes of any individual’s sz are almost invariably terrifically complex and different from – though probably similar to – another’s. See…
The simple answer is its impossible to know. Some people are very sensitive predisposed due to pregnancy factors and genetics (e.g. family history or just an unfortunate combination of parents) and the likelihood is that it would have happened anyway, others it wouldn’t but for some significant drug use, head injury, etc.
I wouldn’t worry about it - since its impossible to know. You can’t look into people’s brains to see what would have been if the person hadn’t had XYZ experience or drug use, or head injury…
Weird childhood, meaning having only one friend at a time (sometimes none), no desire to socialize, being a very quiet person, etc. I think that’s part of schizoid personality disorder.
I think I was schizoid when I was a kid since I didn’t have the desire to socialize. Now I realize the importance of socializing but I don’t have the social skills that I should have gotten growing up. So now I believe I’m avoidant.
Your parents are just trying to blame you for your disease so that they are off the hook.
My mom denies anything I say that implies she had something to do with my issues (my childhood wasn’t that good).
Unhealthy defense mechanisms.