Yeah I can’t blame my schiz on anything or anyone.
A lot of things happened when I first started to feel off. I was doing some drugs but my fiancé at the time was cheating on me and I decided to move home from Las Vegas back to Illinois leaving my best friend in Vegas. It was really stressful. That’s when I started having concentration problems. It wasn’t until a year-year and a half later that I started having delusions and hallucinations. The only thing is, is I wasn’t doing any drugs for that year things were going bad. So I don’t really know if that caused it or not.
I was apparently mis-diagnosed with drug-induced psychosis at 17 and 18, then it was PTSD when I was 24 and finally they said Paranoid Schizophrenia by 25. I don’t know what to believe anymore. Sure thing is it was a long process to get to that diagnosis with several things that could have contributed. It didn’t just happen for me.
Yes. - fifteen-
I also didn’t use alcohol or drugs, neither had I any history of abusement. I think it happens. (I was a stressful though, don’t know if that’s what triggered my illness)
Well, all 3 in my case…on top of what I would say might be a form of non combat PTSD by having the threat of global thermonuclear war drilled into my head all through my childhood…very first memory was Cuban missile crisis and we were in Germany when my Dad got called to duty and Mom freaked out thinking it was the end of the world… we were on what was at the time considered front lines. Although I was very young I still remember the total freak out and an atmosphere of impending doom…
I don’t have SZ though…I have had experiences that got me an SZA dx, but for the most part they were spiritual or else trauma related.
I am a perfect storm. Family history, all of the outdated crap about adolescent behaviors, trauma, weed, I fit every theory, I am not kidding.
I was destined for this, almost everyone made it worse and I made it worse too. It runs in my family. My sister has bipolar and borderline personality. She’s my only sibling. My case fits all causation theories, from premature blue baby birth to masturbation and getting bullied to weed to denouncing my faith in Christianity.
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My grandfather whom I am named after was an MD, and I have some of his books. His 1947 clinical psychiatry textbook even makes sense with my case.
No, I didn´t just happen to get it. The years before I got sick was though. Among other things: A separation from the father of my son, who soon dies after intensely alcohol abuse, and I was left alone with a six years old boy.
My psychosis =seemed= to begin about 20 years ago after months of stress-induced hypomania. It took about a dozen years of bipolar crashes and professional-literature-fueled learning experiences to understand that my mind and brain had been stressed since I was in my teen-age, unwed mother’s womb, that my mind had been trying to cope with the upshots of that for my entire life, and that psychotic experiences had been a means of playing “emotional dodge ball” since I was a kid.
That said, I =have= seen others who seem to have been pretty much “okay” and who didn’t have histories of child abuse or other forms of severe, traumatic stress suddenly (like, over a few weeks or months) slip under the waves… but every one of them had a parent (or parents) who were subtly confusing and odd-thinking in ways that resembled “mild” schiz.
My illness was caused by cannabis, i was smoking it most days, people say it’s harmless but i don’t believe it. Now i’m having drugs forced on me by legalized drug dealers. If these drugs were for the treatment of anything else they would be banned.
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Yes, that’s like our family. No, alcohol or drug abusers, no sexual abuse, normal childhood discipline with shouting and slapping, but nothing out of the ordinary. My Dad’s side of the family mostly a bit “odd”, i.e. Strange ideas and rather withdrawn. Mostly, through three generations, high achievers at school age, then BAM! Many of us had the onset of negative symptoms as we hit 18/19. But mostly we just have just struggled a bit and managed. Only finally, my son got hit with the psychosis - which, ironically, has helped the rest of us to understand what’s " going on" in the family. A couple of my nieces have early signs - motivation, cognitive problems, etc. They are getting some help, so hopefully it will never develop in them.
I had all the signs of sza. I was abused as a kid, my father has sza. My brother is bipolar my mother has clinical depression. I also have an aunt with sz and supposedly a cousin too. I started showing signs around my early 20s then officially diagnosed at first with sz at 21 then it was changed to sza a few years later.
i dont think so, i think there are triggers to this thing
faulty thinking- stress- anxiety- depression- psychosis- meds- recovery
something like that x
I saw my mother and brother both have nervous breakdowns so I think it was always on my mind. Whether it was a self fulfilling prophecy I am not sure.
It’s similar to appendicitis. My mom died from a burst appendix so I always lived in fear of it as a child. On break from college I had to have my appendix removed. After graduating college I had my first breakdown.
In some ways getting both illnesses was a relief because they were no longer so mysterious to me. I am not really sure what exactly caused my appendicitis either (bad diet, a bad bacterium, genetics etc…).
I had a few risk factors (2 sz relatives, winter urban birth, older father, lived near toxic waste site, bad diet, bullied a bit) and it didn’t help that I made a lot of misinformed and malformed decisions (and an impaired ability to learn from mistakes). Fortunately I had some good training in various forms which helps enormously.
Yep genetics is where to find truth.