Ok where to start. I was happy very social kid untill 17 or so. Was diagnosed bipolar,w hbp , PTSD w anxiety, blah blah … but just looked at it as I’m depressed I’m ok. Once in my mid 20s it amped up and became a little more intense.xanax was nice, even got a little buzz but gave me a appetite, focus and most of all tranquility. Lost this prescription when I moved back to indiana and followed up w poorly prescribed med( as I was told) i was rushed to ER w borderline stroke I think? Ok fwd fwd bc of this I chose to self medicate instead of random meds w who knows what side effects. . I’ve been on serequill and latuda @pm and buprophine in a.m for over a yr. but had a issue and trying to get back on it regularly. I hear a dull “elevator music” that I’m certain is not the product of a celling fan gyrating, or even a radio in another room. (I’m a audiophile) as some say. I’m There’s no words that I can pin point or certain Melody I recognize. Thatt got me thinking of certain times and of high stress I felt Like I was being plotted against. I look a little further into it and I see the symptoms that all hit close to home. slurred speech , impaired motor skills, disorganized and Memory problems. My memory is trash and I its becoming noticeable… But Ive Become more impulsive than I already was,absolutely no filter on most occasions past several months. I’ve been left questioning if I’m imagining more than I thought. Dr appointment soon as I can get in but just looking for any insight to those that managed to hang on till the end of this raaamble. I apologize
if the sz symptoms are not noticeable or last for a short amount of time there may be reason to believe you have an intermediate illness. heck, it may not even need to be diagnosed as schizoaffective, some people just have a touch of psychosis alongside bipolar. and remember your doctor knows best.
It’s ok to ramble - lol - but I can’t read the wall of text. 
I’m wondering if perhaps you might be a little manic right now. How’s your sleep hygiene? Have you been getting easily agitated? Anyway I would definitely bring the auditory hallucinations up with your pdoc the next time you meet. That needs to be addressed. Take care.
Lol ya deff manic and been up for about 24 hrs already. Thought typing a short post would sidetrack my thoughts. So instead I posted a novel .
“Wrote a novel”
Lol. Happens to all of us. 
@Google_Sheep - It’s ok to post novels - no need to apologize. We’re just concerned about your well being. Can you see a doctor now?
No and I’m ok just manic and stressed. I appreciate the concern and I’ll call them asap come morning.
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