there are demons here faces all distorted some demons dogs too i cant see the angels anymore
i think they killed them or i killed them because i didnt believe in Jesus i looked at other faiths
i have my headphones on trying to ignore them
they want to see me bleed maybe i need to not self injured in a month no tools here but there nothing stopping me using a knife when my husband isnt looking
there screaming at me they want my soul there are soul eaters maybe am one too
I want money …i cant have money my husband keeps it all i cant go and buy ■■■■ that i want to use
drugs , drink, ■■■■ yes drugs am clean at the moment i go to AA …maybe i should go and read some AA books might help but i feel like i need to rebel
dont want to sleep at the moment scared to
Excuse me, I know you want to drink…I drink myself…but what are you planning on using with your money you crow?
There’s a thing with drinking and narcotics, once upon a time I was almost 300 lbs and a member of both.
You’re not the only one.
i dont know id like to have some money get drink like vodka and then get weed
but i know my husband would stop me from getting that
he says am ill i dont know if i am or if all this is a game that someone is playing on me like a joke sorry if this has triggered anyone
i didnt mean for it too
I have been smoking pot resin and drinking today, you’re not alone in your struggles…except you’re succeeding in sobriety and I failed.
So, don’t panic…and try your best. But damnit hit that man if he’s keeping your money from you.
i dont think drink and drugs are any good for you, esp vodka and stuff
drink is a depressant as you probably know so it will make you feel bad at some point and the come down is horrible, also you may not see the harm it does to your liver but i have seen first hand the terrible consequences of alcohol, my dad had acute liver disease and died of it in the end.
drugs to me i think are a form of escapism as well as a few other things but this is not good because you really need to stay in reality, you need to get proper medicine and stop trying to self medicate,
i found a really good med combo and i might get shot down but i honestly think there is a med out there for everyone and they are making advances all the time.
Along with the contents of the trunk was…(an American flag)
She is sober, better than I am…but, there comes a point in time when legacy is meant to preserve freedom…of all types, maybe I’m a crackpot-or the most horrible man, but somehow-pot and maybe beer or rasberitas (malt liquor) (cheaper and she doesn’t need to od on alcohol) may help.
Here lady just calm down:
I think the demons are tricking you into believeing that you killed your guardian angels. I think they also lie to you and say that you are a soul eater too. Demons are real but never believe a word they say. They are liars, tricksters. I don’t believe in Jesus as my saviour. There are many religions all over the world. What do you think happened to souls of all those who practiced different religions? They were just fine and got into heaven. You will too. As for the drinking and self-injuring maybe inaptient for awhile? Stay strong Crow!
Man I said that a long time ago…I don’t really drink anymore and I’ve moved into a new house with my girlfriend. I can’t believe it. Sounds stupid.
I believe. There is drug enduced voices. Drug addiction ruins your life and takes your soul as it is. I’ve been diagnosed schizophrenic for 10 years and I am letting u know that is does get better. ANYONE hearing darknessin their heads will not be “normal.”- your hearing darkness 24/7
As someone who was raised non religious is schizophrenic and enjoys the occasional toke and drink with out losing my ■■■■ I gotta say this:
Lay off the Judeo-Christian ■■■■■■■■ for awhile and try and be okay with Existence for more than 45 ■■■■■■■ minutes with out feeling guilty. You’re gonna die some day. In that second before death are you going wish you had more fun or wish that you felt like garbage more?
Guilt is the Schizophrenic’s Mindkiller
A guilt complex isn’t helpful though it is unecessary amounts of guilt
I’m okay with looking back on my indulgences. Because they are Empirical Experiences that I can learn from, not Just Things Some One Else Told Me. I learn from my mistakes and try to practically apply those lessons in my life.
One is that everyone screws up and hurts the ones they loves without meaning to. Getting stuck in a Shame Spiral isn’t going to help things.
Be aware and try to understand your feelings but don’t necessarily make connections to completely unrelated things.
I feel kinda down today. WHICH JUST MEANS I FEEL KINDA DOWN TODAY.