Hi there!!
I am not a new member but I am not too active because I don’t speak fluently english but I visit to read threads many times.
So, I want to write about how I feel this period of my life.
I feel like Stallone in the film Demolition man when he had to be adapted in 21th century society. The main difference is that i have not the guts to stand up alone and to face the problems of this totally new experience.
Synopsis:Frozen in 1996, Simon Phoenix, a convicted crime lord, is revived for a parole hearing well into the 21st century. https://goo.gl/images/gaAYsA
Let’s talk about my recovery.
I am in my 6th year of recovery after a relapse in 2012. I am in maintenance dosage of Invega 6mg and Solian 300mg. In remission 3 years now and diagnosed as disorganized schizophrenic.
I have some hobbies, I can read, I have good friends and a supportive family and I am 32 years old without work experience.
At this moment I study at a culinary school for pastry chef.
My main problem in daily life is my extreme naivety because of lack of experience and my low self esteem.
It’s like I was frozen for 15 years and I have the life experiences of a 13-15 years old person.
I have some thought problems of confusion and distractibility and I find my mind like it is stuck, not working properly even thought I am in remission.
My question is can we do something for the lost time and experiences and to not feel like a fish out of the water.
I’m sorry you feel that way. (BTW I loved that movie growing up. Also your English is very good)
The thing about Demolition man is Stallone adapted to the future. He also used his experiences from the past to help the future get fixed. I think that adaptability is key. Part of life is saying ‘Okay this is my life now. This is what I have to work with. So what do I do now that I am in the future?’
Life is unfair. I’m not one to lie and say it isn’t. If life was fair you and me wouldn’t have Sz period. I often feel like a big chunk of my life was stolen from me. But we have to solve the problems put before us no matter how unfair.
And the first step to a solution, you have already done. You recognized your problem. You’ve realized that your naïveté and lack of experience is your problem. And maybe the best solution is to just keep digging in despite the confusion and distractibility.
Definitely talk to your pdoc and therapist. Maybe it has to do with your medication or maybe your therapist can give you techniques to help with dealing with the confusion. Maybe he can help you work on focusing your mind. Learning simple meditative techniques might help you stay in the moment for instance.