I think I can feel people’s energy. Like picking up on people’s vibes. I hear a lot of talk about schizophrenics not having the ability to read people’s body language and things like that but I feel everything. Sometimes when I hear tragedies on the news I think I feel those people’s grief or sadness. It’s intense and painful. I also feel like I can pick up on chemistry with others even if we’ve never met in person.
People are very trusting of me and tell me things they say they don’t tell others like most shameful secrets and that I have a gift of making people feel special. I always think it’s because I can feel their pain and take it from them and give them a piece of my good energy in return.
It never occurred to me before that this is probably what doctors would call delusion. I’m thinking about it very differently right now and it sounds ridiculously impossible but it never seemed that way before.
It is a special ability, I could see the future and even my pdoc believes me because I wrote about X thing is gonna happen to X person and it happened. Remember, schizophrenia hiddes lots of unknown things and abilities not yet studied.
I’m not so sure what you’ve described is a delusion @StripedShirtBoy. It sounds more like a personal belief and just the way you feel when faced with certain events. I’m not sure if you believe you can actually heal others, but just believing that people feel better confiding in you isn’t that strange.
No, I don’t think you’re describing a delusion because I’ve experienced that, too. People with sz/sza are often also “Highly Sensitive Persons” (HSP) – yes, that’s a thing. You do not have to have schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder to be an HSP. Check out this article and this quiz. There’s also a book called The Highly Sensitive Person.
Sometimes people tell me all their struggles and then I turn around and direct them in life and they feel better. That’s not something I would say is magical abilities but several things I’ve picked up over the years. But girls are smarter, so it may just be your personality and you don’t know it.
It doesn’t seem like a delusion, it could be just that you are good with dealing with people. Delusion would be like believing you have magical powers to see people’s energy and manipulate it
I think it’s like…it sounds like I could be an empathetic but what I mean is I think I can control or manipulate other people’s feelings also. Like I can also make someone feel certain emotions or share things they normally wouldn’t and control how they feel about me. I can’t explain it very well because I’m very ashamed if it’s true that I would do that but I think I do. I’ve made other people do things they don’t want to and then let them believe it was their choice. Idk. I think I’m horrible.
That’s what I think I’m doing. I wouldn’t say I’m an empathetic person. Sometimes I feel the opposite. I think I just feel people energies and manipulate them. But that would make me a horrible person.
I wish I knew any fact about myself. Every time I think I’ve cracked the code on my self a voice chimes in and peels another layer. Like no no that’s a lie about you, you’re actually this.
I was with you until this bit. That makes me think you’re taking an extraordinary, but still likely real, ability, and giving it powers that are a bit delusional. If that makes sense.
