If I copied most neurotypicals I would be smiling a lot and chatting away - I would be more confident and at ease, I just cannot make myself behave like a neurotypical - but at times I will force myself to greet cashiers - strangers
once i told few of my friends about my diagnosis, which latter i found out i been misdiagnosed, those friends kept their distance. Now i dont tell anyone.
Now i am At my best and still improving, and curently i have more friends than those friends that cut the contact with me.
I have nothing to worry, now its my time to ignore tham.