Do you experience this? If so what is your explanation? Escapism? Undiagnosed depression? Existential emptiness? Feeling you’re already dead or unreal? Perhaps because your very existence could be construed as an abomination? Thanks
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I wouldn’t say that I have a death wish but somedays I think that I would be ok with death. I very rarely get any joy out of life. And I don’t think that I have depression, just sz negatives so…
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The odd thing is that I do often enjoy myself, but my death wish seems to run very deep.
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Hmmm… yeah that is kind of odd to have no depression and enjoy life and still have a death wish…IDK.
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To be honest; I’m very careful when talking about wanting to die.
Without depression, for me, was escapism.
I felt, that I was done with life. Like I was at the end of the story; or, I wanted it to be the end of the story.
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I don’t have a death wish. But if you have a deep one, that’s worrying. Do you have a therapist or someone to talk to?
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The path ahead of me is too difficult unless my new job is easy other than that I feel dead on my downtimes only time I have fun is smoking with my friends
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I can relate to that house of stark.
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I experience this yeap… I think it’s the sz…maybe we knew too much, maybe we were too alone…
I had death wish also from even physical, mental pain with the desire still to heal and live…
But its probably mostly the sz… it’s a suffering enough without even having a depression…
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I agree , the negs don’t make me want to do anything !!! It sucks I gotta smoke to get motivated to play video games!! Let alone going to work before a zoom meeting
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I just feel like there’s nothing left for me to do in this world. I stay alive because I don’t want to cause my dad grief.
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Yup that’s what I called being jaded I’m jaded as well I feel like I experience everything I try my best to get interest in things but it takes too much energy or concentration
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I can relate to your situation Manny.
There is more to experience in life, the good and the bad.
However, there is still good in the future!
hope is key…find hope and find that you enjoy life…start a hobby…buy yourself some flowers to stare at…go for a walk around nature…hope starts little and builds…but you have to try.
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I do, but I’m not suicidal. This shitt is existential
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Same here. I don’t want to hurt my loved ones.
I experienced that back when I was not depressed. For me it was just a fantasy about relief. Even when life is good, it is still a messy and troublesome thing.
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If its a cognitive issue maybe read a bit of Camus
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I’ve read Camus and he’s great, but are sure his writings are all that pro-life? 
I think he has a slave mentality to + saying we live in absurdity due to the vacuum its rejection creates.
I think life is neither absurd or meaningful. There is both in life but life isnt one or the other.
Whether he is prolife or not depends on how the reader responds to his writing. Some may decide that absurdity is too much and being an absurd hero is dumb. But my interpretation was that it makes cobtemplating suicide a philosophical question that turns it into a thinking or cognitive issue that can possibly be reconciled rather than a feeling or affective issue that is purely emotional.
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