I want to brag! And share! And ask for help!
I started dancing argentine tango.
I have a major issue with fear and avoidance. Social fear, fear of men, fear of touch, fear of failure. Dance is something i love, but it terrifies me too, cause it combines all the above fears.
Now i just started a much higher course in tango last week. All is new - even a new dance partner i didnt know. I was SO scared, but proud.
Despite the fear i started to enjoy it last week. I even loved to be physically close to this guy, strangely. Strangers scare me normally, i hate them touching me. I think he is sweet and cute and odd in a way i like. He is probably at least 5 years my junior. But i felt a bit flirty. I was very shy, insecure and awkward. Im 37 and felt like a teen. He is single. But i cant possibly flirt with him.
So…now…help! Now what? I have to dance with this guy for at least 10 or 12 more weeks.
Im confused and feel weird about it, and a bit excited too.