Cut tonight scratched idk why sigh. Maybe because I’m numb dumb and some craving. Why why do I do it? Numb and drama queen ■■■■■ why am I such a ■■■■■ why do I tell ya? I’m a martyr I guess. I love being a victim in a jail of my making. Drama born. Torn between sanity and the lure of madness. Why? I’m laughing and numb at same time. Craving pain so I can feel again. Funny me…