I am not suicidal and I do not feel depressed. But I do not go out much (partly due to lockdown) and my mum complains I am in my room on my own a lot… I also watch a lot of youtube stuff, mostly about death, suicide, murder, crime, rape etc… most of the stuff I am looking at is negative stuff… and my partner is saying to be depressed you don’t have to think about suicidal thoughts, but thinking about death in itself is not a good sign and I should stop watching…
When I get depressed I push everyone away and keep to myself and I do think of suicide a lot, but I imagine everyone is different.
Yes, sounds like some depression.
Are you moving or walking much?
Low motivation is also a sign of depression.
So is eating more or eating less.
Not good for you, especially if you have schizophrenia, they trigger my psychosis. You’re torturing yourself for no reason which is a classical symptom of depression.
True, only in severe cases depressed ppl get suicidal. But schizophrenia without depression can also cause suicide like in my case from voices telling me to kill myself bcz I am immortal God.
Yes I went for a walk and even went to stay with my partner a few days ago… and lets just say nothing happened I just feel too tired , drained exhausted especially when I go out and meet people it really takes it out of me… but i am back home and i try to go walks but its a struggle to want to get out.
It’s not good for me because it is heightening my anxiety but I am not able to stop it…
How come you are unable to stop it?
Just stop it.
Give your phone to your mom if it comes to that.
I deliberately avoid horror and gory stuff. I do watch violent animes from time to time but I usually stick to safe videos. Why would you want to worsen your mood on purpose?
Yea he’s right, apparently I’m depressed but I don’t think dark things. I just can’t get myself to do much and feel low.
Hope you feel better soon enough @Ish