I just want to say that I’m not sure how much I’ve changed due to sza. I mean if I never had sza but was staying home all day what would I do different? I’m not sure. What would a normal me do. I don’t do much as it is besides eating, changing diapers and staring at a video game mostly afk. What could I be doing? I have no desire to be social, but I was never that socially inclined.
I’m finally having a day where I feel I could do what my normal self would do but I don’t know what it would be.
This sza has been so intertwined with my life for over twenty years now that I really don’t know where “sza me” ends and “normal me” begins. I just do the best I can and try to enjoy the good days.