Thinking of ways to tell my parents I self harm and that I’m not safe from myself right now and want to go into a&e tomorrow for a while. I don’t want them to look at me differently after telling them… I’ve been on “suicide watch” before a couple times by my parents where they just wouldn’t let me be on my own for two seconds and were constantly checking up on me, I got so stressed and felt like I was in a zoo or something just being watched all the time. I’m pretty sure they won’t be surprised if I tell them but it’s just such a scary thing to say because I know they’re going to react badly…
you have to do what is best for you and if admitting yourself is it, do it. You’re already ahead of the game knowing yourself to know you need help.
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I don’t suggest saying anything until after you get some sleep. Sometimes I can’t sleep and feel very suicidal but after waking up I’ll feel much better. Perhaps take a hot shower to help you fall asleep.
I would try that but the last shower I had I broke down in tears talking to voices I couldn’t even hear just begging them to come back cause I felt so alone. Yeah I’ll definitely wait till I’m in the right state of mind to say anything.
Sorry you’re feeling so bad. I’m feeling like sh*t tonight too. It’s like I’m stuck in a pit of tar and can’t get out .
That sounds horrible, I hope you come out of that feeling soon!
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Tbh, I’ve never had luck talking to people irl about my MI issues other than trained psychologist. I have more luck speaking with people on here about my issues than anyone irl.
I’m actually a pretty open person to people irl but I hide certain things which I find too embarrassing or think is too bad. I only told my parents about the extent of my hallucinations and delusions a couple weeks ago when I’ve been struggling with them badly for 5 years. Speaking on here is so refreshing though, there are so many likeminded people I love it!
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I managed to tell my mum I want to be hospitalised and I feel unsafe but I haven’t told her about the self harming just that I’ve been having suicidal thoughts. I’m getting an emergency appointment at my department and they will hopefully take me off this medication as it seems it’s making everything worse. Then I might be admitted to my local mental health clinic. Thanks so much for your help!
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That’s good that you’re getting help! Good luck!
Will this be your first time being hospitalized due to psychiatric issues? I’d recommend bringing some reading material along. It can get really boring in the psyche wards from my experience.
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Yeah it will be. I’m gonna get through a whole lotta comic books!
Google the THE BUTTERFLY PROJECT for the self harm if seems to suit you.
The rules are.
- when you feel like you want to cut, take a marker or pen and draw a butterfly wherever the self-harm occurs.
- name the butterfly after a loved one, or someone that really wants you to get better.
- NO scrubbing the butterfly off.
- if you cut before the butterfly is gone, it dies. if you don’t cut, it lives.
- another person may draw them on you. these butterflies are extra special. take good care of them.
- even if you don’t cut, feel free to draw a butterfly anyways, to show your support.
For your sleep Google Sleep Hygiene and really research it.
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I’ve tried that before and it did help for a little while but mostly just me feeling happier made me clean for a year and a half. I shall research that, thanks!
Bring some flipflops or shoes without laces too. They didn’t allow me to have shoelaces so I had to walk around in my socks. It was horrible.
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I highly recommend comic books/ grpahic novels by Alan Moore. Some of the topics can be disturbing, but overall they’re very high quality. Watchmen and V for Vendetta are good.
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Thanks for the tip! You’re a life saver
I’ve got watchmen in my bookcase and was planning on bringing it! I’ve started to read it so many times but can’t go through periods of time long enough of having concentration to finish it. Think I’ll bring geek love too that’s a good one!
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I haven’t read that one yet, I’ll have to check it out!
Anyways, I’m off to bed, Good luck in the ward! Hopefully they’ll get you on the right meds and you’ll feel alright again.
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My sz was greatly aided by getting a 3" mattress topper. They are expensive but no sleep be some sleep due to subluxation is a great help. You are having a very hard time though and I would focus on Deccribing everything as well as you can to your proc or a family member that can explain it to your proc.
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