I was talking to Hubby about a delusion + paranoia I can’t seem to kick, completely, even though I’ve upped my Latuda a while ago and also increased Seroquel a few weeks ago.
Even though I have enough insight to understand that this delusion is irrational, I just can’t seem to get over it. It has gone down in severity, but it still lingers.
The delusion: I feel like people are watching me through the indoor security cameras. We have cameras in every room except for the bedroom. I feel like “they” are waiting to frame me for a crime. Just a few minutes ago, I was petting Fable (1 of our cats), and I was thinking that I hope that “they” will see that I’m a good person and that I care about animals.
I’m afraid of being framed for animal abuse or even murder. I don’t have homicidal thoughts and the simple thought of hurting an animal makes me sick. But I am also scared of being framed, from innocent camera footage.
Hey hope you’re doing okay. I think hallucinations are quite complex… i think medication stops new delusions from occurring but…the lasting memories and false ideas are still in our minds. I think those go away with time and therapy and the realization that they’re just delusions… a bit of time to collect the fragmented pieces
Why do you have cameras in every room, I’m guessing it’s for evidence in case you get robbed or something like that, but maybe it’s causing more problems than it’s solving???
Can you turn the camera off while you’re in the room and turn it back on when you leave, seems like a lot of work but maybe it will help you relax.
Seconded, honestly that sounds like a nightmare to me. I think having cameras in every room would drive many “normal” people crazy I would suggest getting rid of those if you can.
Seroquel tried to kill me. I cringe Everytime I hear someone is taking it. Sorry I’m just Moody right now I’m glad Seroquel works for some people.i hope your delusions and stuff go away.
Yeah, the cameras are there for evidence, in case someone breaks in. But you’re right, they are causing problems for me.
Hubby has offered to turn off the cameras, to help ease my paranoia. I said he didn’t have to. But maybe I will bring up that topic again, about turning them off for a while.
I had a very similar delusion in the first year of schizophrenia. I believed the police were monitoring me, so always felt I had to be on my best behaviour because I was being judged. It seems to have evaporated now
At the time, I thought I was being framed for a missing person. Everything I saw, posters, TV commercials, everything had something to do with me. It seems like you have very good Insight, so that’s good
I totally relate. They watch me through my phone and through the hidden cameras in my home. It is awful, stressful, and I can’t ever relax and not feel like I’m putting on a show
I’m so sorry that you have this delusion. It sounds really uncomfortable. I have a delusion where I think I am in a brain study/reality show and it is really powerful. I have been bullied a lot in my life and I attribute it to people ‘acting’ in my brain study/reality show. I wish my delusion were true because part of my delusion is I am getting paid for being in it. I think ‘they’ are watching me through satellite cameras that have enhanced ability. I also think I have cameras in my eyes and microphones in my ears so they can see/hear everything from my perspective.
Since your delusion is very upsetting, I hope it goes away soon for you.
How are you feeling? Any better? Did your husband turn the cameras off for you?
I would be completely freaked out by cameras in the house, too. I can’t fix the delusions, and I’m not going to tell you it’s not real, because I find that frustrating when someone does that to me. It’s like they don’t get it. So I’ll just send you all of my and support. You’re not alone in your fears.
Feeling like the cops are going to come after you for something you didn’t do – I’ve been panicked I’m going to jail my whole life and no one will listen to my innocence. I get it. I know you’d never hurt an animal.
Maybe put the cameras all around the perimeter of your house on the outside. I work as a delivery driver and one of the things I was surprised about is how many people have security cameras outside their houses. If someone is going to break into your home they will have to do it through a window or the door, you can still capture their image on a camera from the outside so you can still feel secure in your home without having them feeding this delusion and freaking you out.
I am doing OK. All cameras are turned off, now, except 1 in the basement that we use to keep an eye on the dog when we’re gone. That one is not as bothersome, cause it’s not pointed at the whole room.
I have Clonazepam, a benzo. I don’t need it at the moment, but I have it just in case things get bad.
I’m being framed for things, just because idiots want to run my life. People are always out in the street accusing me of things I’ve never done. I rarely leave my apartment and some liar claims they saw me do something. I’ve never done anything here or anywhere else. I leave in the mornings. Once I finish things I have to do, I never leave my apartment. I always hear people, who sound like they’re sneaking around in the hallway, yet people want to accuse me of things, just because I’m an easy target. They don’t even care who really does things, as long as they can lie about me.