I really can’t put my finger on it, but I am feeling very affectionate today. I woke up feeling a little euphoric and it has just kept going.
I don’t know if the meds are in perfect balance, or if the stress of being finished with finals this quarter has lifted, or if just having the two toxic younger brothers somewhere far a way for a bit getting professional help… but I have been really affectionate.
I sort of freaked out my Mom and my Dad when I gave them both a huge hug after lunch and told them how much I love them and appreciate them.
This feeling started off little and it’s grown. I wonder if it will last until tomorrow.
Last time I felt this connected and into other people, I was rolling on E. But this is just happening. I just hope it’s a sign of healing and not part of the head circus.
I really think having finals over and having 75% less stress these past two days have helped cause this feeling. It’s weird feeling this. It taste like chocolate covered blackberries with a hint of crisp air.
I’ve not felt this in a long time, and definitely not naturally. But I like it…