I look at things from a distance and the more I am awake, I’m convincing myself I am dead. No one in my life seems the same. My view of them has changed. When I talk on the phone, I can see them instead of hearing them. The world I used to view one way is another. I don’t have many memories that are from the short term. Last night I was crying and saying"I’m glad my mom is getting help" that was over 10 years ago when she went to rehab. She is a drug and alcohol counselor now. I’m scared. I don’t like this new perception. What is going on with me? It feels like I’m dead. I also can’t ■■■■■■■ hear myself talk in my head like I used to which convinced me that too.
I don’t want to hear religious bull ■■■■ either
I don’t know what the ■■■■ to do, I can’t sleep because I’m dead. My dreams aren’t dreams they are twisted memories messing with my ■■■■■■■ life even more. I want to talk to my mom. You guys are workers of God, and God is telling you to not say anything. Nobody is real IRL. Because they are different now. Am I in a coma?
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Sounds like symptoms of a psychotic disorder. It’s quite common around here.
Please. If your struggling talk to your doctor and tell them these things. It’s no fun to suffer and sometimes you just need to ask for some help.
What meds are you on ? and how long have you been on them?
Do you remember me? You got me to start exercising everyday and eating healthy? You told me advice when I was upset about choosing the wrong career and that relatives aren’t supportive. I don’t know what else the pdoc can do
I’m on invega, Klonopin and depakote. I feel like my life at this moment is closing in on me
I remember you doing quite well there. Anything change recently? I know that stress is a big problem for a lot of us. It can make your symptoms worse.
A psydoc may be able to help you by changing or helping you stop something that isn’t working or giving you a different reaction. What is new that has made you feel this way? Is it a progressive thing…? Have you gone downhill over a week or so or is it something sudden?
I was going down hill. The doc put me on remeron 2 weeks ago, and then I started CBD OIL. My auditory and visual hallucinations got bad and I wasn’t sleeping right So I stopped the med my self, and depakote for 3 days. Stayed off remeron, and back on depakote 2 days ago, and I had a good day today. Now this feeling is sudden.
I’m no doctor and you might need a dr. Never a good idea to stop something without some guidance. I’d be a little doubtfull of that cbd oil but I’m not an expert.
You may need to check in with dr or the hospital and get on track. Something isn’t right with your meds and you need to sort all that out. You really do and stopping things isn’t in your best interest.
Can you get to emergency? It’s never easy but a hospital stay could be beneficial. It’s not normal to think like you are and you were a lot more focused and to point last time I replied to you…Don’t suffer sort it out. Can you talk to your mother and get to a doctor quickly?
I can’t it really isnt that easy to get to a doctor, it’s almost 130am. I would take the remeron but it was making me so nasty during the day. It was nice to be back to myself, but now I can’t think clear. I could try to call the crisis line
Give them a ring. As I say. It’s not normal…and I suspect your meds are messed up with stopping and starting. You need to sort it out quickly. Have a chat to the crisis line. They may have a better understanding of your local environment.
Would like to see you back being positive and engaging with life again. You can do it…if you need to get some help post haste!
Ok, thanks. I will
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Let us know how you go. Your a good egg and it’s nice to see you well and with things. Try and get some sleep. It can help and take those meds as proscribed! Might be an idea to stop the cbd oil till you talk to your doc?
Ok. I value your input
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This is a helluva disease we all have to deal with. I’ve never thought of suicide more in my life then in the past year. I think I’ve been baker acted about 7 times or about that this year. Medications brought me back when I was really losing touch with reality. Maybe you could talk to your pd about a medication change. And also no b’s like I’ve been finding out these past two months is that pychothearapy can help you become happier with increase in wellbeing. I’m sorry you are going through this crap right now.
The on call at my MH office got back to me last night, I told them everything and they said at the hospital, they most likely won’t admit me, but recommend a med change and my caseworker will be reaching out to me today. I took an extra Klonopin that I’m prescribed, and after sitting on the cold bathroom floor and feeling like I wasn’t in reality, I managed to sleep. Who knows maybe it’s the CBD vape I have, when I found out I was struggling to sleep, I kept hitting it and I think it had a bad effect on me, that and the combo off of/on my meds. I’m taking them as prescribed. I have no idea why I got off the depakote, I didn’t feel like I needed it. The depakote helps me from not getting reality breaks like I did last night. I talked to the on call, and I feel like I was really stuck in my head and absolutely fxcked. By talking to them, they managed to get me out of it somewhat to the extent that I was able to think clearer to take an extra Klonopin and be left with my mind extremely racing, and eventually falling asleep. Bad bad bad feeling when depakote isn’t level in my bloodstream. I know thats what it is, because before I started taking it in December, I had a similar episode and my case manager had to bring me in for an emergency. I got in that kind of mind State, and they put me on it.
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@Winterblues, Now you know that you need your Depakote.
Yeah, I am thankful that there is medicine that can treat that different mind state. I didn’t know it was. Scary. I’m not touching it again only if the pdoc raises the dose.
No, just having perceptions kind of blown out of proportion, they will pass. do everything as regular as possible.
I’m trying 151515
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