Oh right, that’s all kind of similar to me.
Well I’m glad you’re feeling more stable, let the recovery journey continue, 
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When people say stuff like “I’m worried about being sick in the afterlife” I just can’t wrap my head around it. If they have the capability to bring you back to life, obviously they have the capability of curing you. I think it’s the power of delusion that makes people think these things.
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Yea the power of delusions makes you think of absolutely effing everything the thing that can give you the worst fear, eternal things… That’s true… It’s about learning how to overcome that fear if possible
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How long has it been since you got diagnosed? Have the feelings of doom gotten better or worse over time?
Mine got better with meds and time and I always wish that for everybody. Regular life is a bit boring but I have my dreams to liven things up at night, they are always trippy.
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I think they seem to be getting worse. But I’d rather feel this doom than be a dead living zombie again on 15mg.on 15mg I don’t remember worrying about it.
I think that was cos I was sooooo zoned out
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Yeah I had to keep lowering my AP until I got to a small enough dose to still feel human. Fortunately it still seems to work.
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Haha OK cool about the dreams…
Yea… I think that it’s just a matter of time before I find a way to overcome the fear in them… That’s what I like to believe anyhows
Glad yours got better with meds :))))) 
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Can I ask, how long since you started having those delusions and how long did it take for them to go
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The last time I remember being trapped in that delusion was holiday 2017. 2018 was when my delusions started to go away. I joined this forum in August 2018 right about when I got my insight back. I first started hearing voices and having delusions in 2015. So the hardest period of my life was 2015-2017.
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Another possibility I think of if when God designed the universe or created it, if he exists, what if he made an irreversible mistake, so then some people end up in eternal hell or just me at the very least.
I know people say God is perfect but what if he’s not.
Or what if God is perfect and there’s a reason why I should think of eternal hell as a possibility.
There’s so many what ifs with ‘delusuons’
I think I need to study philosophy of some things to come to a belief system that I like.
Something very logical.
I don’t know what else I could do that could help.
Its hard to enjoy life when you believe that there’s a possibility the remainder of ETERNAL life is hell. After death.
I struggle with the same thing, even though in my case there is a clear reason why I would go to hell–if I’m the dictator, then in North Korea, with all bad things that happen, I would go to hell.
With you at least, you haven’t done anything meriting hell. So you’re fine. Don’t worry.
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I’ve done bad things yea, and maybe that is why I feel the way I do about the hell possibility.
I honestly do think God is good though, but my most convincing belief-fear possibility is that what if God did not have a choice in how some things like heaven and hell work, if that stuff including God, all exists, or maybe he did have a choice in me thinking like that, at the least.
How would your family feel about knowing you were in hell forever? That would be hell for them, too. Yet another reason the concept of hell doesn’t make sense.
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God is perfect. He’s like a 360 degree circle. No angles, all smooth. Trust me on that. He did not make any mistakes. I don’t know why he created hell. That makes no sense to me. But just because it doesn’t make sense to me, doesn’t mean it’s not real. And so I’m afraid of it.
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Even more reason why I should feel I may go to hell, because I have maybe created fear in them too.
This is hell always worrying about this stuff. And to think it will be so much worse. Where have I gone wrong? This just sucks.
Sorry you’ve got to experience these ‘delusions’ too.
We are treading some boundaries here peeps. I think we’ve covered this subject to a good level. Remember that religion is triggering to other members of our community and proselytizing is against the rules. Please keep things within a recovery framework and avoid the dialogue about what or if god does!