Excuse me for my ignorance or uneducated thoughts here, I am trying to understand and learn. But I was wanting to know if someone could help me understand what the difference is between someone who experiences psychotic episodes throughout their life vs someone who may be schizophrenic and also (obviously) experiences psychosis. From what I understand, perhaps ignorantly, is that for the most part, being schizophrenic is typically normal unless you start to experience the symptoms of psychosis? And what are positive and negative symptoms? Can someone clarify those too please?
I am questioning this to better clarify my own life and experiences with psychosis. Can you experience psychosis and not have schizophrenia?
My previous psychotic episode ended with me being sent to a psychiatric facility because I had not been sleeping or eating for 5 months. I would get, at most, 2-4 hours a night…sometimes… I was hypervigilant, extremely paranoid, depressed, and towards the end there, hallucinating both visually and auditory. Constant state of fear. I can’t say I had any grand delusions, though I was convinced that psychology was a crock and “crazy” people were just special. Messengers of “God.” Witnesses. Whatever that means. They had me on antipsychotics, an antidepressant, and something else to help me sleep I think. All I know is that I felt like a zombie on them. I got out of there and off of all the meds. I haven’t had an episode since, though I am starting to experience symptoms again.
This is not the first episode I have had. And in fact, I grew up seeing/hearing/interacting with what I believed to be spirits and demons. I once had a tactile hallucination of blood falling onto me from above me. It appeared out of thin air and fell onto my hands. I could feel it, it was wet. Smelled like blood. I was around 7 back then. Though even well before then, I remember many experiences like this.
I’m trying to figure out what my triggers are. And I’m also trying to figure out if perhaps what has been developing over the years is in fact schizophrenia or if I just experience psychosis every once is awhile
I do plan seeing someone soon about my concerns, but I thought I would come on here first to talk with others and get some feedback/education. I hope I have not offended anyone or come off as completely ignorant. I am only trying to learn more about myself and about this stuff.
Thank you so much <3
By the way, I am 25 now, birthday next month so I’ll be 26. I hear age can play a factor in this stuff too. I am also female.