i still cant make sense of it tipping on bewilderment
It’s the angry at being unloved child in us.
Mine makes perfect sense, although I can’t explain the voices or where they come from. Semi-intelligent coordination in the auditory section of my brain. I can make them say what I want, but I can’t stop them. The do seem to have a degree of freedom and choice, but really they just say the first thing that they can to distract me and pick me apart. It’s really ■■■■■■■annoying and it doesn’t seem to be getting any better. Yet, i remember the steps towards going psychotic. Delusions of belief in telepathy came first and then the hallucinations followed.
Yes I think you can make sense of the causes of psychosis; genetic predisposition and the environment not favouring you (like drug abuse, stress or a bad childhood). But I don’t think you can make rational sense of delusions. It seems to me to be like dreaming when you are awake.
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My psychosis does not make sense, the only thing that makes sense is that things have been working out for me so far in life and that medication helps me to forget the psychotic things in my life.
I think that what we experience - our delusions and hallucinations and paranoia makes a lot of sense, I mean it is very real to us. We - most of us take medications and are trying to do something about it, we take responsibility for ourselves.
I just realized that there are many neurotypicals that are delusional - they live in a world or universe filled with false beliefs.
My brother who is not diagnosed psychotic, believes that his wife actually has good intentions, and in his mind only, believes that she is a perfect human being and he believes that his marriage is perfect, when in reality he is living a lie - his marriage is based on deception and phoniness - but I do think that he is delusional and he is neurotypical.
There are many “normal” brained people who suffer from a delusional mindset - just goes to show - we are not the only ones
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God and demons, a spiritual journey through madness, its setting me up for the afterlife.
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Think I’ve made my psychosis worse by trying to make sense of it all. Have found therapy helpful on a lot of it though
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I’ve stopped trying to rationalize my irrational thoughts. There is no way to make sense out of something that doesn’t make sense to begin with. I just try to discern reality from delusion and do my best to ignore the latter.
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I can’t understand why the beings in my so called delusions act the way they do, but I do understand where the delusions come from, It is a reaction to their actions.
A bit of my psychotic break makes more sense when I’m back to lucid and trying to figure out… where in the world did all that just come from.
When I’m in the thick of it… I don’t know… I barely know my name much less anything else. But when I can pull out of it… then I can sort of figure where it’s coming from.
Delusions I can sort of figure them sometimes. Some of them I know exactly where they are coming from and I’m trying to fight them. Others hit me out of the blue and I need help getting back to level.
I know what my psychosis is all about, when and why it happens, it has a certain pattern that I can recognize and be able to surpass it enough not to react upon it or cause damage, surpass it at least as much as I can, I’m a human after all and I know that I’m vulnerable to my own programming.
what is your psychosis type? what is it ?
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psychosis is buying a triple chocolate cake with double cream and strawberries…
…only to find there are no strawberries !?!
not happy
not happy
not happy
not happy
take care
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