Born alone, live alone, die alone

its d little tins in life tat add up

even breatin and tinkin is a joy if u let it

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Boredom to me is a comment on existence and the world we live in, loneliness is turning what you should be resenting against yourself and letting society punish you for something as absurd as just being yourself.

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Perhaps my terminology is a bit strong but that’s how I feel

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Crazily enough, I’m agreeing with @san_pedro . By refusing to take joy in the little things, you’re making yourself miserable.

You’re doing this to yourself. You refuse to do what you’re supposed to, think that you need results instantly, and act as if no one reaches out. One thing goes wrong and the first thing you do is lash out at others or yourself.

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I have been punished for being myself my whole life

It does seem like being alone is a cure in itself as protection from others

Do not resent being alone but boredom is on me

Sometimes I feel like the public vote has lasted 35 years, and the treatment I have had is not acceptable as a history

It seems like being alone is my lot now and I have to find a way to accept it

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Sorry if I am lashing out

I’ll keep it to myself

No one’s problem here

Please lock the thread if that’s ok

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You don’t need to keep it to yourself. We are trying to give you advice on how to improve. I would prefer if you didn’t refer to the rest of forum as garbage though.

That being said, I will close the thread if you still want it.

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There are no instant results with this illness. I’m still working on being healthier three decades in. I’ve had years where I am certain I have gone backwards and other years where I wouldn’t have known there was progress without my recovery diary. The improvement was snail’s pace slow in nature.

Welcome to life with SZ.

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I wasn’t intending to say that. It’s not what I meant

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I respect the forum and appreciate the people here

No way I would refer to you all as garbage

Just how I reflect on myself

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I understand now what you meant now Joker. If you read these two lines here together, I think you’ll understand why I thought that. You referred to “us” and then said “human garbage”.

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With the life i am living i feel like low life. Sometimes due to lack of motivation to self hygiene, cleaning my apartment, exercise. I mean everything what makes me feel better about myself i am not motivated to do it.

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Sorry it read that way

I can’t seem to edit it for some reason

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I am the same right now and know how you feel

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Best to get a job, less time to think

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even bein alive is so so very special, to excist …

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I guess when i get hungry enough to change my situation i will get something to eat.

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some people were never born

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Being alone is great. People are just a bonus. Why do you need people?

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everlastin life i believe