My partner is most amazing person… might have cracked the reasons why I sometimes get miserable…
If im not happy with someone… it has been easy to find a reason to blame them for it in some way… then as I go deeper in thought, I realise they’re not really to blame… then I turn the blame on myself and the guilt and shame takes over for feeljng how I felt…
He says I’m either blaming someone but most of all myself…
I always think people hate me. New people I meet, people on the forum. I think the only people I trust are the ones that knew me before the illness. Luckily there is still a lot of those.