I guess most of us experience this: some days my symptoms are rough and some days my symptoms are gone. I used to worry about getting rid of my symptoms once and for all and forever. Then, when they’d return I’d get all bummed out. That approach had to change.
I’ve learned that if I work at this and not be passive, the best results happen. For example, I’ve developed a rule: “never believe the delusional thinking no matter how real it seems.” That’s worked well. A part of me somewhere inside still sorta believes the delusional thoughts, but now I fight against that.
It’s a lot better than the old days when I’d just go with the delusional thoughts - fully believing them and acting accordingly. Now, I don’t have to believe them, I don’t have to cooperate with them. I can instead choose to be healthy and act healthy. What a relief it is, what a sense of control and even power; I no longer ever have to cooperate with delusional thoughts.
Some days are good, some days aren’t as good. The thoughts come back, they try to force me to believe in them. On other days they’re just gone completely. But it’s all better. And by taking an active stand things continue to get better.
Thanks to everyone here.