And I’m alone unfortunately. Can we chat a bit so I’ll relax? I’ve been playing Destiny 2 a lot lately, new release, but haven’t been getting as much sleep as I should because of it. About to lay down to unwind after I finish smoking this cigarette. Idk but I’m already feeling better lol.
I spent time with and old but also new friend yesterday, that was pretty cool. I actually drove a few exits up on the interstate to give him a ride which he desperately needed, which was a major accomplishment for me as a severe agoraphobe. Then him and I went to Taco Bell, and I actually went inside, ordered food, and also made conversation with one of the employees outside. That was literally major for me because I never willingly go out in public and I especially don’t interact with strangers IRL. The downside is that I was self-medicating yesterday so to me it sullied my accomplishment a bit, but I know “I had the strength to get better and make progress all along,” which is a total cliché but it is pretty true though. I’d like to be able to feel a bit more normal, in public and in general, without having self-medicated. That would be really awesome. I just have to work up the courage to actually try.
Anyways yeah, I’ve been a member here for a while and never really opened up to you guys before so…tada! I opened up a little bit haha. It only took some severe delusions/hallucinations to get me to do so, right? lmao. But yeah surprise lol.
Well, thanks for listening. I already feel much better than I felt and the symptoms seem to have mostly subsided for now. So thanks for that, too. (: