My mind is getting more and more filled with what the doctors told me were delusions. I’m paranoid, and cant shake the idea of this all,being a simulation. My thought challenging isnt working tonight, and for some reason I’m scared to sleep. Have to be up at 5am for work, and its 10:34pm currently. Still have to shower, and the thought of work is filling me with dread.
Seeing my pdoc friday to get back on antipsychotics. I have to hold on until then. I have to.