I’m battling urinary incontinence when I lose insight, and so far my voices have become so severe. I’m suffering greatly. When I lose bodily functions, I worry about what my parents would say. It’s embarrasing and dehumanizing.
I’m going to log as I battle with these episodes and how I deal with it from time to time.
It has been absolutely grueling. My voices are flaring up every day. I just want to stop feeling this way.
I’ll keep recording my progress for my recovery’s sake.
Have you talked to your doctor about the urinary oriented commands?
Not yet. I have an appointment next week.
They may have good advice.
I peed myself when I was living homeless. I had delusions about ramifications if I used the toilet at the shelter I was at.
The voices told me to urinate on the floor and if I don’t do it they would torture me. When I follow their commands, I completely lose insight. I often find myself covered in excrements. They also commanded me to not use the toilet because it’s unsafe. It’s really hard to use the bathroom nowadays. I’ve had accidents two days in a row when I was taking a shower. Honestly I feel useless and worthless. I hate myself when I see myself in this way.
You need to talk to your doctor it’s an unacceptable problem. I really feel compassion for you I hope your doctor is helpful.
I’m just concerned on what my doctor would say, it’s such an embarrasing problem. It makes me like a child. Honestly I hate myself so much right now.
Don’t hate yourself. You’re not a child. You’re suffering from a serious problem. I feel for you. I’m really sorry.
Your doctor will have to address the problem. It will become his responsibility or hers to address the problem.
I was thinking I could be hospitalized to stabilize the command hallucinations for a while, but I have work. I don’t know what to say to my employer. In the ward I was thinking of going into, I was told that I could use the computer. So maybe I could work while in the hospital.
Unlikely you could work while hospitalized. You may have to choose your mental health over your job.
I agree with @FreeLunch . You absolutely need help from your dr, even if it means not being able to work while you get stabilized in the hospital.
Tell your employer you are very unwell and in the hospital due to an undisclosed illness. Say you’d rather keep it private. I’ve done that before and kept my job.
I just checked the Internet. The law doesn’t protect my job. So I would have to work in the hospital because it’s a stay-at-home job and I can take my computer there.
I had bunch of commands today including the urinary commands but I didn’t follow any of them.
I also let my mom know that I’m hearing commands. She’s quite worried.
My doctor says it might be triggered due to the mood changes I was having.
Glad you’re having more success today! You can do it! You’ll recover and be good as new again just give it some time. If you can work from the hospital why not.
I still think you need to get help.
I’m going to discuss hospitalization with my doctor or upping my medication.
I started taking extra medication and they seem to be working and I have no commands so far.
Don’t feel bad, it’s not your fault. The voices threaten you……they trick you so don’t feel bad.
That sounds promising. Good luck!