Today I feel full of anger and hatred for everone in the world. I feel as if every statement or gesture people make is intended to slight me in some way.
I feel pessimistic about the past and future. I feel like I am a loser and other people and entities (god) have forced me to be this way.
Recently I have failed at certain things in my life, I have been left without friends or any social contacts at all. In many ways My social growth has been stunted.
I’ve been feeling violent urges in the past several days. I feel like my desperation leads to me wanting to harm or kill myself and or all those who are trying to keep me down.
I’m frustrated at my mind for failing me at the time in life when I most needed it to be functional. It hurts even more that I have no one to complain to, so I come here.
What do you do when you no longer have the capacity to see a way out?
Well is something causing you more stress than normal? I find when my anger is getting the best of me I have to work to understand why I am mad in the first place and then try to think of rational ways to deal with it. Idk if any of that is helpful to you but I wish you the best of luck.
I don’t think there is any specific stressor in my life right now. I just feel angry, angrier than I ever have in two years of schizophrenia. Like I wanna tear someones head off.
I know the feeling the best thing you can do is try to do something to get some of your energy out like walk or exercise. And try to do something you find enjoyable or fun cause if you can do something that makes you happy you don’t have time to be angry!
Then try to reflect for now just on yourself and how you feel you’ll be ok hugs. But maybe try some stretches and focus on your body and your breathing. Try to get some sleep to maybe youre tired.
Calm down and look at the bigger picture. You are only at one stage in your life and tomorrow the sun will be bright and shining and you might be happy. All it takes to be happy really is to be alive and healthy. Meet friends by joining a club or going to an event. Reach out to people and talk about yourself. Be confident. For now, just forget everything. Go to sleep, take your meds, wake up early tomorrow and score some wins to feel better.
I chant especially when I feel angry. I think that my self-talk is
waste of time and upsets me. Chanting stops me from talking to
myself. I can still look at the world and contemplate is beauty.
There is some research to show that remembering numbers
(presumably by chanting them) helps people to see the big picture.
Ahmed, L., & W de Fockert, J. (2012). Working memory load can both improve and impair selective attention: Evidence from the Navon paradigm. Attention, Perception & Psychophysics, 74, 1397–405.
Summarised on my blog
I like going for walks when I am angry, but if you can’t, then you could draw, or write in a journal. I love drawing or coloring mandalas (if you don’t have a mandala book, then you could scribble on a paper, then color in the scribble in a checker board pattern - it is very soothing and I used to do it when board in math class). Writing in my journal has been hugely helpful in getting my feelings out in a way that is not hurtful. Even if you throw the paper away afterwards, it helps.
I would not go around people more than you have to when you feel like that. Or at least that it what I do. I need my cave time in these instances.
I wish you well and hope you can calm yourself down
