so last night i as layed awake waiting to fall asleep. i was thinking about my thread about downsizing my living situation yesterday. i actually prayed for guidance and direction last night, about what to do. which i rarely do.
anyways as i see it, if i move back to my hometown and get in some subsidized apartments, i can be very comfortable with some gov’t assistance and a part time job. it’s the perfect little enclave for me, with shops, restaurants, gyms, groceries and mental health services all within walking or bicycle distance. i wouldn’t even need a car. and i would be well taken care of. of course my world would become smaller, i would become a townie, and continue to know little of the world. it would be less responsibility and probably the wise choice, but i can’t help but dream about the alternatives. although it’s basically exactly the kind of place i would be looking for if i moved.
then there is the alternative, like continuing to drive, working full time, bouncing around travelling as i work. meeting lots of people, experiencing different cultures, maybe even picking up and getting fluent in a foreign language. when i was younger, i wanted to travel and take on the world, then sz hit and now i just mostly go places to visit family. i still have a bit of youthful wonderlust about the world and for some reason i want to experience, instead of staying home and working, and maybe taking tour buses when i travel when im retirement age. so i don’t know what to do.
of course if i moved into the apartment, i could still take my little road trips by bus, when money and time allowed. i would probably always be in tennessee, arizona, colorado, and florida visiting family though. i wouldn’t get to any foreign countries, and would be mostly seeing the same things just for a change of scenery.