Every time I bring something up about myself my parents say I get it from YouTube or the TV or movies. Like I’m very impressionable. It pisses me off very much. I can’t watch conspiracy theories because I get paranoid. Like my mom says i become them. Examples include groundhog day or edge of tomorrow.
I used to be like this. Every time I would read a good book or movie, I would begin to act or think like a character, for a while after, like they somehow get into my head. I’m not so much like this, anymore.
However, when I watch or read about things that really interest or inspire me, one of those things being conspiracy theories, I can’t get them out of my head. I’m just consumed by it for days, weeks, or more.
Must be a schizo thing, idk.
I’m influenced by people styles and ways of talking but not by what they say, I like to watch conspiracy theories because I can clearly see their faults, stupidity and why their arguments and affirmations are wrong.
When psychotic my subconscious leaked out all over the place. I didn’t realize it till later that I was talking whole ideas out of movies as if I’d made them up. A very unnerving experience!
These days I’m carved from stone. I have to have a pretty hard mindset to keep myself together but I’m warm and genuine to most folk. I do my own thing however! I’ve always gravitated to like minded individuals so I think that helps!
They say I am, (the devil? The hive mind? Is the devil just a hive mind or is he different?) because I was arguing and saying I am strong, and they say I am weak because my will is weak I am very easily swayed and that makes me a good target. A good toy? A tool? Food? All of the above?
Maybe it’s true my will is weak. Is my will weak? How does one determine the strength of their will?
I’m a little bit impressionable, yeah. I tend to unwillingly copy mannerisms from those near me, or characters I see a lot during binge-watches of shows (I’m currently re-re-re-re-watching House)
but it seems to have lessened a bit as I’ve gotten older.
I’m easily swayed, though. If I have an opinion about something and it’s not a strong opinion, someone with compelling and logical arguments might easily get me to change my view on it.
I don’t see it as weakness as much as a flexibility.