I get that too with voice of God once in a while. Its a wonderful feeling to be affirmed!
I also talked to a priest who took it seriously.
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Is it us who is irrational or them? Or are both parties irrational? Or is the universe itself irrational? It exists but for what purpose.
I do think a lot of people are ignorant as can be. Thatās the lesson Iāve learned through all this. Ignorance is bliss.
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I bet you guys if there is a heaven we will be surrounded by friends when we meet the true death.
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Just donāt mess up your chance. You only get one shot.
After what Iāve been through its a struggle just to think. Heaven sounds exhausting. Unless itās a state where you have no thoughts. Like a small thoughtless moment of bliss that is drawn out for forever. It is unchanging. Thatās kind of how Iāve always seen heaven. You can feel the presence of others that you love.
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Weāve been cleansed of our sins by going through this pain.
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Perhaps what I need to do is accept where fate has taken me with grace.
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God gave me a few seconds of heavon a few times as a gift for obedience and compassion for pain. It felt like living in a banana cream pie and not worrying about it ever ending and so much more then that 
I would feel that way the whole night after doing the divine mercy chaplet.
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Imagining what itād be like is cool but I donāt believe itās possible. I think it is a healthy thing to imagine. Meditative.
Isolation isnāt good , it fuels delusions , and depresses people. Why not revisit the meds?
It takes perservierance with meds it can take a long time to find something that works and side effects you can tolerate
I have had a lot of bad reactions to trying different medications, as well as higher doses of my current medication.
I know. I would like to try something else but it doesnāt feel worth the change.
Hi all,
I am thankful that despite the anxiety, depression and sometime voices that came back recently to terrorize me, thankful that despite the PTSD of so many times of psychotic breaks and losses several times of once good friends who dumped me after breakdowns, I still face the day, get out in public for my meals, have some very good friends and several friends and acquaintances (who see that though I may feel troubled or even gruesome I donāt act that way and donāt treat others that way) who like me and I like.
I am home alone a lot and seemingly isolated (others are busy and not at my beck and call lol) but I read sports news and human rights news, am active on Facebook, and have music on in background always.
I suggest folks go out to cafes, have a coffee, practice starting conversations or responding to ones that others start your way. There are clubhouses too for mental patients for socializing as well as some organized groups to participate in growth like W.R.A.P. (wellness recovery action plan) or Recovery international which is an early self talk kind of CBT started many years ago by Dr Abraham Lowe. also, coexisting disorders groups for those who also need help with a drinking or drug issue as well as sz. Hey schizophrenics anonymous helps some too.
All will connect one with others whu/ch allows practicing people skills and the likelyhoof=d of making a friend or two over time.
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Hi @Unk. Thank you so much for your optimism. A true breath of fresh air not that everyone on here isnāt a complete peach
I trimmed my beard, brushed my teeth, and showered. It always makes a difference.
Thanks @lagoonlovely 
Truly, bit by bit, day by day, one can take credit and feel good about oneself by acting to w.r.e.n.c.h. oneself out of bed, off the couch, away from the Tv, and out into the world step by step to acclimate to being around everyday people. And clubhouses and support groups - like BDSA (bipolar depression support alliance) are safe places with fellow mental patients and staff that are ex-patients and understanding.
There is an expression: do we live in victim consciousness or survivor consciousness? actually we have some of both at the same time yet taking steps out into the world to take care of oneās biz and to find friendly-like places to be welcome and hang out - truly can boost oneās mood a bit, provide an opportunity to practice socialization skills, and if one puts their thoughts and conversation on things we (at least used to) enjoy like music, movies, books, animals, current events, we can relate with others about that (practice relating) and not on illness issues. AND take credit for bravely going out even if others arenāt very sociable toward us that day.
one day at a time, one hr at a time, one minute at a time, we act to build a life more satisfying even if not like we were before we got struck down.
It may not seem easy and may seem awkward and anxiety making but it gets better with time and experience and practicing. always, some days are better than others. Heck, itās spring in the Northern Hemisphere, Take walks and look at flowers and trees etc. Thanks for reading this. Also - yes, I often have the blues ā¦ and so do non-mental patients. Regain awareness and empathy; and know their blues is not about us being near by. They have their own stuff that hurts. Reject paranoia and self-centeredness this illness can make; we are all individuals and if someone is gruf, something in their life is getting to them - not to take it personal.
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All of the time, being social is overwhelming to me. I also donāt like the radio because itās too stimulating. Iām more social on this site than I am in real life; I donāt talk to friends just family members.
I just organized my bedroom quite a big. Having a organized, clean living space can ward off negative energy.