I just had Pdoc and therapist appointments today. I only go every 3 months or so.
It kind seems like there’s no real point to them because they can’t ever offer good …or sometimes ANY advice. I show up, “how’ve you been? Any symptoms?” I respond and that’s pretty much it. Even my therapist said there isn’t anything to talk about during my appointments, she asked me what she could do to help. Of course I didn’t know how to respond to that because if I knew what ppl could do to help, I’d find a way to do it myself.
Then the Pdoc appointment happened and I expressed some interest in taking meds again. I asked if taking something ‘as needed’ would work for when I start to get symptomatic and can’t handle it. He said yes and recommended Risperidone (actually Ability, but I can’t afford it, so risperidone was his 2nd choice.) I told him I don’t want the metabolic side effects of it (or any atypical) and would prefer a typical 1st gen. AP since I don’t care about the 1st gen’s side effects since it’s only as needed. He still stuck with his original choice and wouldn’t really waver from it. So he said “think about it.” Now I’m supposed to call him in a month with a decision whether I want to start risperidone.
I don’t know if I should give it a try or not.
The thing that pisses me off the most is that for 2 years they pestered me about not taking meds. Then I show interest in them as long as they don’t raise my blood sugar <- my ONLY condition and they seem as disinterested in prescribing me meds as I was in taking them before.
Sorry, just venting I guess.