After a handful of some pretty scary episodes I’m now on Saphris in addition to the Geodon and Seroquel. I kinda like it because it lulls me to sleep at night. I feel really calm and gradually drift off. One major down side is that it makes me eat like crazy. I’m trying to make good choices but I just feel so hungry.
One good thing did come of the one episode last week. My boyfriend came over to be with me. We’ve been together over a year but this was the first time he saw me psychotic. I was rambling on and he said come here and held me while I cried on his chest. I was so upset but at the same time felt so good. I really am starting to believe he is my soul mate. He says that I am his.
I haven’t been posting much because I’m applying to some jobs that require a security clearance and am a bit paranoid about how much they investigate you. The recruiter really seemed to like me though.