I have never felt more free as when I introduced myself with an androgynous name, Chris, and had people refer to me as “they”.
Sometimes I feel feminine, other times I’m more comfortable feeling masculine. Sometimes I don’t feel like either.
I don’t know if there’s a word for what I’m feeling with regards to my gender. I hate being reminded I’m female and have female parts, but I wouldn’t want to have male parts either.
I feel attracted to both men and women but actually dating either one scares me lol. My feelings change every so often ie more attracted to women than men, then vice versa other times. Meds somehow affect that too, but again i dont want to be intimate with anyone irl, fantasties are enough for me rn