Any help out there?

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Ummm… Okay. Check this out…

So, my lady(31) and myself(24) have been together for, let’s say, two years. About a year through the relationship, I asked her to have my baby. She said ■■■■ yea. So excited. Really excited(in my trump voice). :joy: …

About four months into the pregnancy, we were laying in our apartment, all cuddly and things. Next thing I know, I caught a vibe … Pause… Lets flash back a bit…

Three years back, I was REALLY heavy into hallucinogens. I mean, grey market drugs like 2c-b, 2c-i, as well as acid, mushrooms, hella mary jane. I sold pounds of it. Ridiculous lifestyle. One day, I did acid, alone, in my room, with my eyes closed. Guys, it was ■■■■■■■ weeeeiiiii1111rrddd. I saw like this little alien version of me at a control station with all of these options of response to stimuli. It was life changing. Afterwards, I wasn’t so carefree. I felt like I had decisions to make EVERY day that changed EVERY thing. It would make me to were I was anxious whenever something risky would happen. After a while it would calm down. However, I developed this “understanding” that you could pretty much ask people anything. If they looked right and you felt a high vibration, they were telling the truthfully saying yes. If they looked left with a high vibration, they were lying and trying to say yes but the truth was no. You can do the math on the multiple ways to interpret the theory.

Flash forward, she’s pregnant, we’re in the bed. I feel a vibe from her ask my “internal name”. Only thing is, I said “Jerry”! Jerry is my brother’s name you guys!!

Ooooommmmmgggggg

Every since then, when we vibe out, and I feel her try to grab my attention, I can almost audibly hear her call me Jerry and it freeeaks meee outttt to the point of being angry. I tell her, internally, that’s not my name, correct her, then try to continue loving her but it’s been so tough. I wish you guys could feel my pain and mental exhaustion. Pfeww. Smh. It’s been torture. I’ve had HUGE fights with her. Sent her to stay at her aunt’s house(2-3 days max some times 3 hours or until i cool down). All types of things. Absolute torture, mentally!

I have so many Q’s and I’m hoping to get some A’s, nahhmean?

First off, can us “conscious” folks not hear each others vibes? Is telepathy a hoax? Has anyone experienced having one vibe that ticks you off (whether some one called you your brother’s name or not)? Am I just going even more absolutely bat ■■■■ crazy?

A guy named Mooji says that you should have a quiet mind. That you shouldn’t have thoughts unless they flow naturally, but how do you play chess without thinking of your moves? Is this the way? Im super ■■■■■■■ at a fork in the road? Can i get a road guide?

Sincerely,

Paranoia0nmym1nd

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Your girlfriend is not communicating with you telepathically. You can’t tell if people are lying to you or not based on their eyes and “vibrations”. These are delusions. You should go see a doctor and stoping taking drugs.

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your mind is going to be what it is… some minds are quiet… other minds are noisy without relent and they are tough as hell to handle sometimes.

You can strive to have a quieter peace of mind… you can learn to deeply respect the experience… meditation and things like tai chi and all that… helluva lot of folk do a helluva lot of work to quiet their mind when they need too.

Lot’s of other very brilliant and successful people never do… a lot of people hate that they absolutely can’t

Unending monologues are correlated with gifted status type minds… not that it’s always one to one… but dude it’s becoming more obvious to me when someone really isn’t thinking at all and I’m so frankly far from that it’s amazing…

I hate all the time I’ve wasted with unnecessary thinking… and I despise the world for not facilitating thoughtfulness…but I’m by no means alone in any of that.

But don’t take Mooji to seriously… typically folk like that don’t mind rubbing in what few advantages they have… they’ll smile and smirk and enjoy telling you that oyur just doing it wrong straight up… and feels good to them… it’s horrendous and even my closest loved ones will drop those kinds of statements on me like some acceptable tease… you telling me I can change this at all… you’d even rob me of my pride before I get a chance to try…

To me chess is either to think about without words than with them… one of the few places where that is true…

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Though I agree with the sentiment of No More Drugs… A lot of people think that when they harm themselves, it’s not affecting others-- this is not true. For example, I would be hurt if you did damage to yourself, and I just met you. Call me a bleeding heart if you will, but if a stranger cares about your well-deing, imagine how much more those that know you?
Drugs = poison

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Right. Paired with the assumption that I still do drugs, the dismissal of scientific study urged me to ignore their comment.

Anyways, I really want to give up on feeling like I can accurately read her, be ignorant, and therefore in bliss. I just can’t do it though. It’s hard to give up when I’ve reaped the benefits of this understanding. It might not win me many female friends but reading people has led me to some success including sleeping with over 50 women. Guys who find it hard to connect with women will appreciate what I’m saying. Im not just winging it here.

However, I think she just likes him because I liked him. Now, I don’t even like him. I figured it was just a figment of my imagination that she was referring to me as a vibe different from the one others “call” me internally (Sorry if you dont understand what i mean). So, I began to shake my head “no” when she would send that toward me (if u dont feel like every person that enters your sphere of influence pervades your energy and vice versa, pay more attention). Then after a while I tried saying “Im jerry”, and she shakes her head and I can feel a “you’re not”. So now im like I just wanna take my brain out of my head and live with just a heart bc its a bit too much strain on my being :joy:

Idk wtf is going on anymore in her head but she swears she loves me, swears she isnt in love with anyone else, but here’s the catch, she says she doesnt even look at guys. SHE SAYS SHE DOESNT EVEN LIKE ANYONE ELSE. im just like Honey ive known too many ppl (thousands of followers on social media and plenty of in person associates) to believe you dont even like anyone else. However, she kinda just stays in the house, goes to work, and comes back.

It’s ridiculous because now i find myself comparing myself to him and that is OH so draining.

Losing hope on relationships as I type but I have a 2 month old son with her now. If it ends, he’s of course living with me since she has 6 kids, one dead, 3 with her ex husband, one from the neighbor of her ex husband, and one with me.

All these secrets kept surfacing while she was pregnant and I honestly feel played af. I had no idea she slept with THEIR NEIGHBOR and got pregnant. No freakin idea. No idea she slept with the neighbor’s SON after the having the baby from the dad (after being divorced). No idea she had a baby who died while she was responsible for it ALL UNTIL SHE WAS PREGNANT.

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There’s no telepathy going on. This is either the drugs, or your sz going on. You need to stop using and tell your Dr that this has been going on in your mind so he can treat you.

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I don’t do drugs. You do drugs. I’ve gone thru worse ■■■■ but this is just depressing.

Instead of being weak, I’ll prob leave her and at least ■■■■ hot chicks :joy: relationships are stressful.

What i can say is that a lot of times i feel like the voice in my head is always me. Have you ever noticed that the voice, regardless of what name it calls itself, is the same voice as always but calling itself a different name? It’s you ■■■■■■■ with yourself.

And if mary-anne next door “comes into your head” saying she doesn’t like you. She probably doesn’t. But i can promise you its not her.

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Who were you directing this at? :confused:

Are you currently under the care of a pdoc and are you on meds?

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No. I dont do drugs. And i dont visit a drug dealer.

Here’s an update though: we just talked and are about to ■■■■.

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You sound like you’re trolling the forum.

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