Welp I made it… Another year of life since my suicide attempt. I’m more or less back on my feet. I have a job that I can handle pretty well… a good car… a good apartment… I can cut my own hair… still hallucinating out the woz… but that’s alright.
Was losing my ■■■■ yesterday… but got home and put myself together pretty well.
Getting coffee with a beautiful girl this afternoon… Spaced out playing fallout 4 yesterday… first time since psychosis set in that I’ve been truly entranced by something… So that was super healthy I think. Looking forward to more of that.
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player.setav strength 10
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player.setav level 10nice little boost at the begging of the game… gives you a few perks to spend at first and maxes out your stats…
I must say the forum has been drab over the last couple of days… Love you all though… Keep fighting it… together we can climb out of this muck… A friend told me about some new scientific finding regarding SZ… I’m not finding the article but it was about how the brain atrophies in certain areas during psychosis and the new study demonstrated that there is eventual compensation for lost functioning in other regions of the brain. Pay no mind to your sz… let your thoughts be thoughts… allow them to be irrelevant and guiltless… focus on real things… it really is advantageous in the long run… “exploring” your psychosis is hard not to do… but you feed what you focus on in a SZ brain… I guess that’s my advice for the day…
